My man has chosen to go to China with ELIC, a Christian organization, where he'll be teaching English. He also really wants to learn the Chinese language. I am a senior in college and have been studying the Chinese language a bit longer than him. I graduate in May.
We started dating on June 3, 2012. A few weeks later, he told me about the organization and asked my opinion. At the time, I didn't know where our relationship was going or that it would even be painful when he left.
A year later we are very much in love, and he proposed to me on my birthday, less that a week before he was to leave for China. I was elated about being engaged and hardly noticed that he was leaving until our last full day, when it hit me and I started crying. He has been in China for a few days now, and the sadness and loneliness has yet to go away. Even an unattractive, irrational, obsessive, jealous side of me I never knew I had has started to make itself known. I fear for the distance and the length of time, that it might make him forget our love, forget why he proposed to me. His teammates are one other guy and 4 girls. Irrationally, I fear he'll begin to see them as better fits for him, more "godly" and happier people.
I realized this is going to do nothing for our relationship and that it's complete insanity, so I'm trying to give it a rest, but the sadness is still very sharp... I'm living in our apartment with both of our stuff, alone. Waiting for classes to start up.
I went to a yoga class today thinking it'd be a relief; it worked for about an hour until I was crying again! I've never felt so weak or vulnerable, so I hope it gets easier soon. And up until he left, I had not a care in the world.
I'm glad there's an online support group for this type of thing! Anyone have advice for cheering up quicker?
We started dating on June 3, 2012. A few weeks later, he told me about the organization and asked my opinion. At the time, I didn't know where our relationship was going or that it would even be painful when he left.
A year later we are very much in love, and he proposed to me on my birthday, less that a week before he was to leave for China. I was elated about being engaged and hardly noticed that he was leaving until our last full day, when it hit me and I started crying. He has been in China for a few days now, and the sadness and loneliness has yet to go away. Even an unattractive, irrational, obsessive, jealous side of me I never knew I had has started to make itself known. I fear for the distance and the length of time, that it might make him forget our love, forget why he proposed to me. His teammates are one other guy and 4 girls. Irrationally, I fear he'll begin to see them as better fits for him, more "godly" and happier people.
I realized this is going to do nothing for our relationship and that it's complete insanity, so I'm trying to give it a rest, but the sadness is still very sharp... I'm living in our apartment with both of our stuff, alone. Waiting for classes to start up.
I went to a yoga class today thinking it'd be a relief; it worked for about an hour until I was crying again! I've never felt so weak or vulnerable, so I hope it gets easier soon. And up until he left, I had not a care in the world.
I'm glad there's an online support group for this type of thing! Anyone have advice for cheering up quicker?
my fiance left for Japan this morning, so know you're not alone. We got this!
I know the same will happen with you and you're SO, just give it some time and you will both get into a schedule with each other. 
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