Well my train tickets for my trip to see my boyfriend came in the mail today. Originally I was supposed to leave on August 29th but he got approved for an extra day off work so I am able to leave a day early and have an extra one with him. I am so excited. However; the last time he left me to go home was the hardest yet and I am scared of that feeling happening again. It is so much sadness and he seems to stay quiet the first day we are apart which just eats me up inside. I feel such emptiness and he knows it bothers me. I try to tell myself it is the way he responds to the distance we once again have but sometimes I just don't know what to think.
Ha, this started out as a good thing and all these things are on my mind that I want to right about but not sure if I can here or not. Just mainly about feelings and thoughts and how to get past some of the insecurities I feel now and then. See, I have always had reasons in the past for my insecurities in other relationships and I know I don't need to have them in this one. I know I can trust him to be faithful and brutally honest but some things just still bring questions to my mind. Ugh.
Any suggestions of a place on here I can write about it or if I am in the right area to write about it? Insight and advice is always great. Or to hear others who have had the same problem but things are working out fine. I know the insecurities could kill our relationship if I let them get to me and I need help with that....
Ha, this started out as a good thing and all these things are on my mind that I want to right about but not sure if I can here or not. Just mainly about feelings and thoughts and how to get past some of the insecurities I feel now and then. See, I have always had reasons in the past for my insecurities in other relationships and I know I don't need to have them in this one. I know I can trust him to be faithful and brutally honest but some things just still bring questions to my mind. Ugh.
Any suggestions of a place on here I can write about it or if I am in the right area to write about it? Insight and advice is always great. Or to hear others who have had the same problem but things are working out fine. I know the insecurities could kill our relationship if I let them get to me and I need help with that....
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