I had to say goodbye to Jason this morning. It's hard to think that just 12h ago we were still all snuggled sleepily on my twin-sized bed. He left pretty much 20 minutes after we woke up. I walked him to his car and picked up some items I had left in there (a water bottle and sunglasses) and then I hugged him... it suddenly hit me that I did not know when the next time I would get to hug him would be. I stayed by the car while he got inside and set up the GPS for the long (10h) drive back home, and since we couldn't hear each other as the windows were up, he signed "I love you" which made me smile. He smiled too and then I stepped back so he could drive off. I couldn't bring myself to walk away from him. I started walking away back to my apartment as he drove off, so we were both moving and not leaving the other behind... that's always tough to do.
We grew so much this summer. He insists that, even though he is the one to pay rent on it, his apartment is "our" apartment, and it is "our" bed, "our" kitchen, etc. It really does feel that way too. I feel at home at our place, and while I like my new apartment here as well, living with a housemate is obviously a lot different! I found her on craigslist so while she's very nice she's not exactly a friend, so I can't really ask her to help cheer me up.
I miss our cat, that scrawny little thing we brought home from the barn and who turned out to be such a goof. She plays fetch! She doesn't mind getting picked up, kinda goes limp in your arms when you do. And she loves snuggling up on my chest and just purr the day away. She kept me company while Jason was at work, and now I get to miss the both of them. I'm glad he gets to keep the cat so the apartment isn't completely empty, though.
It was a wonderful summer, and now it's back to the grind with classes and work starting tomorrow. While I am looking forward to both, it's still tough to see the positives when I have to go back to the LD routine again. I don't know yet when our next visit will be. It scares me, this uncertainty. I mean we will definitely see each other at Thanksgiving (end of November) but I don't want to wait that long. I know I've been spoiled that the longest we've gone between visits has been a month.. I don't want that to change.
To end on a good note though, here are some pictures.
Our last evening in Texas, before going on our last date:
He actually wanted to take this one, which was sweet of him:
This one was a candid because we were giggling at... something:
And the flash blinded us, but I think we're still cute.
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Here I am with our Little Monster Domino:
Little Monster sleeping on my lap:
We grew so much this summer. He insists that, even though he is the one to pay rent on it, his apartment is "our" apartment, and it is "our" bed, "our" kitchen, etc. It really does feel that way too. I feel at home at our place, and while I like my new apartment here as well, living with a housemate is obviously a lot different! I found her on craigslist so while she's very nice she's not exactly a friend, so I can't really ask her to help cheer me up.
I miss our cat, that scrawny little thing we brought home from the barn and who turned out to be such a goof. She plays fetch! She doesn't mind getting picked up, kinda goes limp in your arms when you do. And she loves snuggling up on my chest and just purr the day away. She kept me company while Jason was at work, and now I get to miss the both of them. I'm glad he gets to keep the cat so the apartment isn't completely empty, though.
It was a wonderful summer, and now it's back to the grind with classes and work starting tomorrow. While I am looking forward to both, it's still tough to see the positives when I have to go back to the LD routine again. I don't know yet when our next visit will be. It scares me, this uncertainty. I mean we will definitely see each other at Thanksgiving (end of November) but I don't want to wait that long. I know I've been spoiled that the longest we've gone between visits has been a month.. I don't want that to change.
To end on a good note though, here are some pictures.
Our last evening in Texas, before going on our last date:
He actually wanted to take this one, which was sweet of him:
This one was a candid because we were giggling at... something:
And the flash blinded us, but I think we're still cute.
]Here I am with our Little Monster Domino:
Little Monster sleeping on my lap:
We can do this! 
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