Hi just looking for some friendly advice. No matter how much i try I can't figure out what is going on in my head!
Been with boyfriend for 5 years, 4 have been long distance. People who arent in LDR's freak out when I say that but because it has been so long I'm very used to it and enjoy having my own time.
However I really get my hopes up for the times I'm going to see him, get excited and then feel let down when I do.
I love him very much but it's almost as if I can't stand him when I'm around him (like get very annoyed with him) but miss him immensely when I'm away.
Going through my head I feel it can be a number of things, like i feel he doesnt appreciates me anymore and takes me for granted and sometimes I feel breaking up with him would open his eyes to that but I don't want to break up.
Or it's this relationship OCD I keep hearing about where I'm putting too much pressure on it.
Or it's the length of time we have been together and he is extremely comfortable but I keep thinking 'is this it?? I'm only 25!'
Or it's the fact he has moved 4 times and doesn't know what he wants to do. Whereas I have a nice job, lots of socialising etc quite settled for now.
Anyone shed some light on my craziness? Much appreciated!
Been with boyfriend for 5 years, 4 have been long distance. People who arent in LDR's freak out when I say that but because it has been so long I'm very used to it and enjoy having my own time.
However I really get my hopes up for the times I'm going to see him, get excited and then feel let down when I do.
I love him very much but it's almost as if I can't stand him when I'm around him (like get very annoyed with him) but miss him immensely when I'm away.
Going through my head I feel it can be a number of things, like i feel he doesnt appreciates me anymore and takes me for granted and sometimes I feel breaking up with him would open his eyes to that but I don't want to break up.
Or it's this relationship OCD I keep hearing about where I'm putting too much pressure on it.
Or it's the length of time we have been together and he is extremely comfortable but I keep thinking 'is this it?? I'm only 25!'
Or it's the fact he has moved 4 times and doesn't know what he wants to do. Whereas I have a nice job, lots of socialising etc quite settled for now.
Anyone shed some light on my craziness? Much appreciated!
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