Hi everyone!
I know I only seem to post when I have issues, I promise I do read, but with my health problems it's hard sometimes to get online and post...sorry about that...
Anyway, now that Scott's out of plaster, he's back at work and doing okay health wise. He called in the middle of the week last week (we usually only talk on the phone at weekends) and when I asked why he said "Don't you know what day it is?" I'm thinking, it's not our anniversary, that's in May...not when we met, that's April, not when we reconnected since that was also April...not birthday, we both have the same one and that was January...holy bugger what have I forgotten?!
So he finally says, "it's a special day, it's Wednesday! I missed you and decided that since our rule is only weekends or special occasions, I would make it one. I'm American and we invented special days!" To which I laughed and we chatted for about fifteen minutes on his way to work. It brighten my day and I know it helped him.
Then this morning, I get a call just after my alarm had gone off at 7am (which Scott knows and with the 6 hour time difference, it was 1am for him) and it's him. He's sad and melancholy because it's been nearly two years since we last saw each other in person. I asked what was up and he said he was just calling because he needed to be sure that the plan is still on, that there will be an end to this at some point.
The plan, as he calls it, is for him to come here on a fiancé visa, we get married and then apply for the spousal visa and live happily ever after (hopefully!) He's been saving, as I have too and he knows that any visit will eat into that, but he's also really struggling with the distance. He wants to come visit, but can't get time off work to make it more than a quick three day for which he'd pay about $1000 and it's just like...for $1600 he can apply for one of the visas and he just doesn't want it to be put off because he couldn't deal...
So we talked for a bit, eventually around 8ish I got him off the phone and he went to bed...I had to take Miss D to school anyway, so I couldn't talk for any longer and with his work being difficult recently, he couldn't afford to be so tired he couldn't go in. I just...it's HARD and I KNOW that you all know this, I just needed to let it out, y'know? I'm lucky to have understanding friends, and one of my friends was in an LDR and has been married to her guy for like 13 years or something, so I know it can work and I know it can get to an ending of CD, but, ugh! I just wanted to hug him and I couldn't!
At least I WILL be going in November as his family have invited me for Thanksgiving, which is something I've always wanted to experience so I'm going - health permitting and as I'll have graduated from uni by then I'll be able to use some money from my parents as a graduation gift towards flights and such. He knows I'm coming to him and he's trying to look forward to it, but November is SO far away when you're just desperate to hold each other, y'know?
Okay, rant and whine over...thanks for listening guys!
Joey
I know I only seem to post when I have issues, I promise I do read, but with my health problems it's hard sometimes to get online and post...sorry about that...
Anyway, now that Scott's out of plaster, he's back at work and doing okay health wise. He called in the middle of the week last week (we usually only talk on the phone at weekends) and when I asked why he said "Don't you know what day it is?" I'm thinking, it's not our anniversary, that's in May...not when we met, that's April, not when we reconnected since that was also April...not birthday, we both have the same one and that was January...holy bugger what have I forgotten?!
So he finally says, "it's a special day, it's Wednesday! I missed you and decided that since our rule is only weekends or special occasions, I would make it one. I'm American and we invented special days!" To which I laughed and we chatted for about fifteen minutes on his way to work. It brighten my day and I know it helped him.
Then this morning, I get a call just after my alarm had gone off at 7am (which Scott knows and with the 6 hour time difference, it was 1am for him) and it's him. He's sad and melancholy because it's been nearly two years since we last saw each other in person. I asked what was up and he said he was just calling because he needed to be sure that the plan is still on, that there will be an end to this at some point.
The plan, as he calls it, is for him to come here on a fiancé visa, we get married and then apply for the spousal visa and live happily ever after (hopefully!) He's been saving, as I have too and he knows that any visit will eat into that, but he's also really struggling with the distance. He wants to come visit, but can't get time off work to make it more than a quick three day for which he'd pay about $1000 and it's just like...for $1600 he can apply for one of the visas and he just doesn't want it to be put off because he couldn't deal...
So we talked for a bit, eventually around 8ish I got him off the phone and he went to bed...I had to take Miss D to school anyway, so I couldn't talk for any longer and with his work being difficult recently, he couldn't afford to be so tired he couldn't go in. I just...it's HARD and I KNOW that you all know this, I just needed to let it out, y'know? I'm lucky to have understanding friends, and one of my friends was in an LDR and has been married to her guy for like 13 years or something, so I know it can work and I know it can get to an ending of CD, but, ugh! I just wanted to hug him and I couldn't!
At least I WILL be going in November as his family have invited me for Thanksgiving, which is something I've always wanted to experience so I'm going - health permitting and as I'll have graduated from uni by then I'll be able to use some money from my parents as a graduation gift towards flights and such. He knows I'm coming to him and he's trying to look forward to it, but November is SO far away when you're just desperate to hold each other, y'know?
Okay, rant and whine over...thanks for listening guys!
Joey
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