So we talked. And i told him everything that bothered me, how he didnt seem to care anymore and how i really cant do the distance any longer if we never talk.
;( and he completely freaked out and told me to just leave him if i dont love him anymore, which just isnt true. I love him more than anything ever but i just felt disrespected and wanted to solve this. And he cried so much and kept on telling me i should just dump him and he would just go kill himself and what not.
now hes in hospital, had a heart attack ;( ;( ;(
He has a heart problem since he was born and had surgery on his heart 2 years ago..im so worried and i feel so guilty ;(
maybe i shouldnt have brought it up at all? Maybe i was just overdramatisizing everything and exaggerrating a bit much? ;(
Oh god i feel so helpless and lonely and so guilty
im such a horrible person and i dont think i can ever forgive myself i almost killed the only person ive ever really loved ;(
;( and he completely freaked out and told me to just leave him if i dont love him anymore, which just isnt true. I love him more than anything ever but i just felt disrespected and wanted to solve this. And he cried so much and kept on telling me i should just dump him and he would just go kill himself and what not.
now hes in hospital, had a heart attack ;( ;( ;(
He has a heart problem since he was born and had surgery on his heart 2 years ago..im so worried and i feel so guilty ;(
maybe i shouldnt have brought it up at all? Maybe i was just overdramatisizing everything and exaggerrating a bit much? ;(
Oh god i feel so helpless and lonely and so guilty
im such a horrible person and i dont think i can ever forgive myself i almost killed the only person ive ever really loved ;(
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