Oh wow.

[glasspaper]

He called me yesterday.
We were just talkin sweet and lovey dovey of how we have missed each other till he asking me whats up with me here. I was hiding something on him and it seems like he smells it.

So i ended up venting and confessing it to him about how messed up my situation here now and that i just did a stupidest thing in my life, i thought he would hates me if he knew it.

He heard me cry.
Then when i calmed down a bit, he said that he hates what just happened with me, it makes him scared and freaking him out, also he feels so bad cause he couldn't do much for me cause the distance.

And then when theres a lil silence, he says "you know, i love you. I know its weird maybe, but i do"

I'm speechless as i never expecting him to say that. It's been 2 years and it's the first time he said that.

Then he continued telling me of how he wants me stay with him, he gonna visit me on this fall and he wants to take me back with him to usa.
Well, He has been talking about that idea these last couple months anyways.
But i'm still all clueless, it would be our first time meeting in person and he wants to take me to his country right after that, i'm just like "really?".

I tried to tell him that it wouldn't be that easy as there are things that i have to get done here, plus it's not that easy for me to get usa visa quick.

But he just like "whatever, we gonna figure it out, there would be a way".
After the phone call he sent me text telling he loves me and says "we will meet, you'll see"

Now, i feel like i want to step back and run away.
Idk why but it feels a bit overwhelming. I know that i love him and want to be with him.
It had me thinking a lot as it just like fantasy and unrealistic, just too good to be true. Or am i overanalizing thing here?

[squeeker]

Aww that is great!! I am more on the side that you two should plan a first meeting first and then after that start planning your second meeting and closing the distance plan and how soon you can feasibly close the distance in. I'm not sure how long you have been together, but that's my two cents. I'm all about slow and steady. Though you will have to work through the complex visa procedures to see what the best course of action is for you.

But just keep in mind it is a good thing he told you he loves you and you had all those good chats about meeting and your future. It makes it more real, it's not just a fantasy. Though to be honest, my first visit with my SO felt like a dream a lot, especially at first. :P But I have picture proof it wasn't!! haha Good luck and stay strong!!

[Squinchy]

I second squeeker! You should meet first and make sure everything is peachy. If the first meeting goes well, which by the sounds of it it definitely will, then you can start planning together for sure. It seems like it's going very fast for you, and that's what is scaring you. Give it time and take it slow! In the meantime, enjoy the relationship and et comfortable with the idea of meeting for real. It will be great!