So it has been a month to the day that me and my So went from CD to LD, and I thought I was coping quite well, only one major meltdown on my end a couple of weeks in, but I had been stopping myself from crying/ being sad, so I think I needed a good howling session in order to get on with everything in my life.
But today, I've gone all gloomy again. I have to go on a field trip on Sunday, which we've both known about for months, seeing as I picked my University modules in june, so we won't be able to talk all week because I'll have no internet access at all. We normally hang out on a Friday night but now he is going to a diaper party for some guy at work he HATES with a passion, don't ask me why, and he has a rugby game saturday so we can't hang out/talk then either. So the prospect of not hearing from him for all that time has really got me down.
On top of this, he was supposed to be going to and from the virgin islands for 6 months for a work project, so that would have been finished february, but the job has now been pushed back, so now there is a chance I won't be able to go see him in april/may, because there is a huge chance he won't be in the country I'd had my heart set on that visit, because if I don't go, we won't be physically together for another 6 months at least otherwise We'd still make it work, but I was counting on that interval of CD to get me emotionally ready for my final exams and the whole stress of the visa process.
It's just so hard to get myself out of a slump when I don't have him to give me a hug or even just old my hand. I hope it will get better when I move back to Uni and have my own space away from home, and a single bed... I hate sleeping in a double bed with out him
But today, I've gone all gloomy again. I have to go on a field trip on Sunday, which we've both known about for months, seeing as I picked my University modules in june, so we won't be able to talk all week because I'll have no internet access at all. We normally hang out on a Friday night but now he is going to a diaper party for some guy at work he HATES with a passion, don't ask me why, and he has a rugby game saturday so we can't hang out/talk then either. So the prospect of not hearing from him for all that time has really got me down.
On top of this, he was supposed to be going to and from the virgin islands for 6 months for a work project, so that would have been finished february, but the job has now been pushed back, so now there is a chance I won't be able to go see him in april/may, because there is a huge chance he won't be in the country I'd had my heart set on that visit, because if I don't go, we won't be physically together for another 6 months at least otherwise We'd still make it work, but I was counting on that interval of CD to get me emotionally ready for my final exams and the whole stress of the visa process.
It's just so hard to get myself out of a slump when I don't have him to give me a hug or even just old my hand. I hope it will get better when I move back to Uni and have my own space away from home, and a single bed... I hate sleeping in a double bed with out him
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