Anxious Suicidal Newbie

[differentcountries]

People change. He doesn't sound all that mature from what you are telling about him.

[R&R]

But I don't feel like he is not into me anymore, or that he wants to make fun out of me. . He'd never do anything that is aimed at hurting me directly like abusing me or making fun out of me. . Instead, all the time when I'd scream at him, he'd say sorry, and try to explain me whatever misunderstanding we have. You see, he has always been the mature one in our relation, the one who keeps the other warm and complete. And that is why I can't wrap my head around the fact that he can even think about cheating me. . ..

You most likely can't wrap your head around it because it's not something that you would do. However, he is a different person and has shown total disregard for this relationship.

The ex I spoke of before who cheated - he denied it. He showed up with obvious "love bites" on his neck, and I chose to ignore it. There were nights where he couldn't be contacted at all and I knew why. However, I had better be able to be contacted 24/7.

I did everything for him. When he was starting college and his computer died, who bought him a new one? Yes, me. (And this was when computers were really expensive.) Who would adjust plans on a dime to fly to him? Me. When he got his own place, who bought all the kitchen items? Me. Who was there for support while he went to school and started new jobs? Me. Who was faithful to the end? Me. Who took me for granted, flirted and cheated with others? Him. Why would he do it? Because he is someone who can never be satisfied in any relationship he is in and it took a long time for me to realize it had absolutely nothing to do with me at all but everything to do with him. This is what you need to realize. You can do everything and then some and they still can cheat and you did nothing wrong. And now, almost 20 years later, he is still single and never satisfied in a relationship.....and he never will be.

[LDRSufferer]

Hmph. . . .. I guess letting go will be the best and only solution, for both him and me. . .. . .
Hmmmmm.. . .. .. . .
And,
Thanks, to all of you guys for talking to me. . .. It meant a lot to be able to speak out my head after so long and hear other voices than just mine...... Thanks Everyone. .

[Miasmata]

Take good care of yourself, and choose the right people for your life. Wishing you the best for your future!