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    Just a Rant...

    Sorry if this is kind of long, I just need to rant/vent

    I am really stressed when it comes to my LDR and things with my SO. Him visiting has been delayed due to some things over there. There's so much going on such as he is not able to get his passport yet or his visa (Some complicated stuff that I don't really want to go into detail with because it's a long story). Anyway, he doesn't know when he will be here and I have no idea as well. I keep telling him to let me know in plenty of time because I need to take time off work for the day he arrives and they would need to know ahead of time. I just feel stressed because I'm lonely and just want to be with him again. We've been apart for longer than this before, but I guess I'm just anxious about him coming here and meeting my family and also showing him around my hometown. I try not to stress..I focus on my own life such as work and school. That gets these things off my mind for a little but, but the stress keeps coming back..

    Also, my SO and I seem to fighting a lot more recently. Mostly misunderstandings when we talk about him coming here and how long we'll be waiting. I feel like I'm being selfish when I tell him that I just want him here already. I don't mean to be selfish and I know he is working really hard to get here. He got another job (he wasn't working enough at his first job) and he has been saving up for almost a year without spending too much money. He does so much and I am very proud of him. It just feels like every time we have a good idea of when we'll be together again, something goes wrong. It's happened at least 5 times. In a way, it feels like it's the universe's way of saying that he should not come here. That's the main reason I'm stressed...because every time we plan for a certain time, something delays it even more. By the way, this whole thing has been going on since May. So it's been about 4 months of me not knowing what to do or how to not worry about this. I know, it will happen when it happens, but that doesn't mean I'm not gonna worry...

    So many things over here on going on with me and I feel so disconnected to him..When I left to see him about a year ago, my parents were going through a divorce and we were all in the same house and my friends were still in school (I graduated a year early). When I came back home 6 months later, everything was different. My parents were in different places and it was all strange to me. My friends never even acknowledged that I came back and they were never supportive of my relationship (I still don't think they are). Basically, I'm still getting used to the new things happening here. I grew up for 17 years with my parents being together, and now even after 6 months of being home, I'm still not used to seeing them apart. I don't really have friends because they hardly talk to me. I feel all alone over here (I have complicated relationships with my parents now) and all I really want is for my SO to be here so I won't feel so alone..

    I'm trying to hang in there, but it gets really hard at times. As I said, I'm focusing on others things (being independent) but worrying about this still gets to me..

    #2
    Tough call, but you've just gotta keep hanging in there. You've been in a relationship for a long time by the looks of things, I can understand how a relationship would begin to suck at a distance after 4 years LDR I'm guessing? That said... you can't do anything more, it's just a waiting game, I'm afraid.

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