Before going to my problem, let me just gave you a preview of my relationship.
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She was my first GF. Highschool sweethearts, we lasted 2yrs but then broke up coz I was spending so much time with friends, playing PC games. She felt like an option, so yea.
4 years later (even no communication from her since the breakup), I have left my home country Philippines to move to New Zealand. Have a GF at that time for 9mos, we lasted 3yrs. But me knowing that she's been cheating on me. So I broke up and moved on. Months later, my ex (current GF) added me as a friend on FB. (coz at that time, GF from 3yrs blocked all my ex's, but then I was single. I unblocked them all and just wanna stay friends).
After that, we started things smoothly, known each other much better talked more than the last time, known new things from each other. Decided if we can try it again after 6mos of getting to know each other. Loving her until now.
Hope to see her again soon.
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So yea, that's maybe it. But now, we're having some difficulties on our end. She's now hanging out more frequently with her friends, drinking, going home late (maybe 9pm-12mn or worst spent a night there). So I was getting worried as you know, you can have fun but not that much to the extent of every single day or two. And I'm feeling left out, coz whenever she comes home. She's all worn out, tired. We'll talk for a good 15-30mins then she'll fall sleep. I was fine with that, I understand. But as it keeps on happening, I'm feeling that she's spending so much time with them and our time. She got no more energy for us, all there is one time. I got pissed and I told her, I wanna talk to her if she can come home earlier than usual? Coz she's been doing it for 2-3 weeks now. And she did not reply, she just said that they're eating and talking, went home 12mn. Checked her FB account, found out she went drinking, and she's the only girl coz all of the ones invited backed out last minute with stuffs to do, and she's with 2 guys to go drinking. I talked to her about that last night, she said nothing happened and I trust her word from that. But the thing is, knowing that she can refuse to come, but still. She insisted, and came. Did not let me know. After all that, it all sink in into me. That she's not having time to me anymore. I confronted her, maybe she lost her self on the way. She lost her interest and affection to me as well. I told her, maybe we should cool-off, so you can find what you need to find. Maybe it'll help us in the long run, if we wanna continue our relationship.
But then if she ever found herself out, and it's not with me anymore. She's fine without me, can do things without thinking it might affect our relationship and such. I'll respect that decision of hers. If it were to happen.
But then, hopefully I made the right decision. Coz she knows it too as well, she don't know whats happening. She said that, she wanna do those things, explore, enjoy life. And if I were to get out of that picture.
I'll be sad truly, but be happy for her.
So yea, hopefully. We'll work this out, not to end up as we're nearing 12/24, our 2nd year anniversary.
I love her, I always do.
New years resolution, save up so I can see her this coming 2016.
Thanks for reading up to this point.
Thanks for LDR community!! <3
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She was my first GF. Highschool sweethearts, we lasted 2yrs but then broke up coz I was spending so much time with friends, playing PC games. She felt like an option, so yea.
4 years later (even no communication from her since the breakup), I have left my home country Philippines to move to New Zealand. Have a GF at that time for 9mos, we lasted 3yrs. But me knowing that she's been cheating on me. So I broke up and moved on. Months later, my ex (current GF) added me as a friend on FB. (coz at that time, GF from 3yrs blocked all my ex's, but then I was single. I unblocked them all and just wanna stay friends).
After that, we started things smoothly, known each other much better talked more than the last time, known new things from each other. Decided if we can try it again after 6mos of getting to know each other. Loving her until now.
Hope to see her again soon.
---
So yea, that's maybe it. But now, we're having some difficulties on our end. She's now hanging out more frequently with her friends, drinking, going home late (maybe 9pm-12mn or worst spent a night there). So I was getting worried as you know, you can have fun but not that much to the extent of every single day or two. And I'm feeling left out, coz whenever she comes home. She's all worn out, tired. We'll talk for a good 15-30mins then she'll fall sleep. I was fine with that, I understand. But as it keeps on happening, I'm feeling that she's spending so much time with them and our time. She got no more energy for us, all there is one time. I got pissed and I told her, I wanna talk to her if she can come home earlier than usual? Coz she's been doing it for 2-3 weeks now. And she did not reply, she just said that they're eating and talking, went home 12mn. Checked her FB account, found out she went drinking, and she's the only girl coz all of the ones invited backed out last minute with stuffs to do, and she's with 2 guys to go drinking. I talked to her about that last night, she said nothing happened and I trust her word from that. But the thing is, knowing that she can refuse to come, but still. She insisted, and came. Did not let me know. After all that, it all sink in into me. That she's not having time to me anymore. I confronted her, maybe she lost her self on the way. She lost her interest and affection to me as well. I told her, maybe we should cool-off, so you can find what you need to find. Maybe it'll help us in the long run, if we wanna continue our relationship.
But then if she ever found herself out, and it's not with me anymore. She's fine without me, can do things without thinking it might affect our relationship and such. I'll respect that decision of hers. If it were to happen.
But then, hopefully I made the right decision. Coz she knows it too as well, she don't know whats happening. She said that, she wanna do those things, explore, enjoy life. And if I were to get out of that picture.
I'll be sad truly, but be happy for her.
So yea, hopefully. We'll work this out, not to end up as we're nearing 12/24, our 2nd year anniversary.
I love her, I always do.
New years resolution, save up so I can see her this coming 2016.
Thanks for reading up to this point.
Thanks for LDR community!! <3
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