I've done all I could, but it was all a huge waste of time :/
Well I guess I finally feel alright enough to talk about this, so here it goes. After breaking up with him once already in the summer, I took him back and things were great. He apologized for not being around, started answering my texts after I sent them, and he even made plans to meet me. The plan was that we would both drive half way to Pittsburgh around the end of January once he got on day work again. This was around mid November we started making these plans. I happily agreed, but I told him that I needed to know the exact days for this so I could call off work. He said that he promised that he would let me know.
Well January came and went and I heard absolutely nothing from him about our trip. He kept making stupid excuses about his schedule changing and I accepted it at first because I wanted to believe in him. When I asked him to let me see it or if I pried into it he wouldn't answer me. This idiot wouldn't answer me for almost a week. That's when I've finally had enough. I've tried literally everything to keep this relationship going and he never put in nearly as much effort into this as I had. I felt so lonely and distant from him, it hit that point where I couldn't even remember why I loved him. So I just ended it. I had to do it through texting (which I never thought I would ever do) and he never responded to it. It's been almost a week now and he still never responded to me.
I feel like I failed somehow. I tried so hard to keep this relationship alive that I have exhausted all of my energy. I thought he loved and cared for me, but it turns out that died long ago like I thought. I wish he was that person I met nearly a year and a half ago, but he isn't anymore. If you ask me how I feel now, all I could say is that I feel literally nothing. If anything I'm just tired right now, but at least I'm free
Sorry it's so long, but thanks for reading this all the way through. I think that's everything though I may have left some stuff out idk.
Well January came and went and I heard absolutely nothing from him about our trip. He kept making stupid excuses about his schedule changing and I accepted it at first because I wanted to believe in him. When I asked him to let me see it or if I pried into it he wouldn't answer me. This idiot wouldn't answer me for almost a week. That's when I've finally had enough. I've tried literally everything to keep this relationship going and he never put in nearly as much effort into this as I had. I felt so lonely and distant from him, it hit that point where I couldn't even remember why I loved him. So I just ended it. I had to do it through texting (which I never thought I would ever do) and he never responded to it. It's been almost a week now and he still never responded to me.
I feel like I failed somehow. I tried so hard to keep this relationship alive that I have exhausted all of my energy. I thought he loved and cared for me, but it turns out that died long ago like I thought. I wish he was that person I met nearly a year and a half ago, but he isn't anymore. If you ask me how I feel now, all I could say is that I feel literally nothing. If anything I'm just tired right now, but at least I'm free
Sorry it's so long, but thanks for reading this all the way through. I think that's everything though I may have left some stuff out idk.
I still think he's an asshole and if I ever see him around Philly, I don't care...I'll go to jail for assaulting a cop, and if he asked me why I did it, I'd say your name and I bet those charges would get dropped real fast.
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