Hey everyone!,
Lately I haven't been feeling so well and in a way I've been making myself feel bad and have really unessesary thoughts and feelings towards my Boyfriend past. So to start off my Boyfriend and I started talking for over 6 months and I never connected with anyone as much as I have with him. Right from the start we started learning so much about each other and started even getting on FaceTime and having phone calls as well. He asked me out and I knew I wanted to be his regardless of the distance because I knew one day we would have plans to see each other, and we did! This upcoming June for my graduation and August at his place and again in October for my birthday! Everything couldn't be much better. I'm so excited to see him! We have our fights here and there but we know how to communicate with each other and we still learn everyday. Now, recently I've been overthinking and become really sad due to my boyfriends past. I know he would never cheat on me and has never cheated on me. He respects me and is very loyal just the way I am with him. Since the start we have opened up to each other and I know all about his previous relationships including his sexual past and his "nude sending" via iMessage, Twitter, snapchat etc. now I know this was a time where I didn't know him and there's honestly nothing you can do about the past, but why am I feeling so low? It really bothers me how other people saw his body like that and honestly it seemed like he was so reckless and so sexual even with two random people he didn't even know! I keep overthinking and having thoughts in my head like, "why would he do that", "does he not value sex?","does he feel so comfortable with anyone?". It really makes me feel less special and I know I shouldn't feel that but honestly I don't know how to stop. Many arguments come from me always questioning his past or trying to start problems because I'm bringing it up and I don't want to push him away because of that. I want to feel better and not think of it but it's always coming in my head and I don't like picturing him doing all his reckless sexual activities from the past. I love him so much and I know he does too. It really sucks because it's something that just comes randomly and it completely ruins my mood. I want to know if anyone else is feeling this way or can explain to me how I can overcome this. I know it's not his fault and people all over the world do reckless things with ought thinking when there single. I guess it's that I love him so much that everything hurts to think.
Lately I haven't been feeling so well and in a way I've been making myself feel bad and have really unessesary thoughts and feelings towards my Boyfriend past. So to start off my Boyfriend and I started talking for over 6 months and I never connected with anyone as much as I have with him. Right from the start we started learning so much about each other and started even getting on FaceTime and having phone calls as well. He asked me out and I knew I wanted to be his regardless of the distance because I knew one day we would have plans to see each other, and we did! This upcoming June for my graduation and August at his place and again in October for my birthday! Everything couldn't be much better. I'm so excited to see him! We have our fights here and there but we know how to communicate with each other and we still learn everyday. Now, recently I've been overthinking and become really sad due to my boyfriends past. I know he would never cheat on me and has never cheated on me. He respects me and is very loyal just the way I am with him. Since the start we have opened up to each other and I know all about his previous relationships including his sexual past and his "nude sending" via iMessage, Twitter, snapchat etc. now I know this was a time where I didn't know him and there's honestly nothing you can do about the past, but why am I feeling so low? It really bothers me how other people saw his body like that and honestly it seemed like he was so reckless and so sexual even with two random people he didn't even know! I keep overthinking and having thoughts in my head like, "why would he do that", "does he not value sex?","does he feel so comfortable with anyone?". It really makes me feel less special and I know I shouldn't feel that but honestly I don't know how to stop. Many arguments come from me always questioning his past or trying to start problems because I'm bringing it up and I don't want to push him away because of that. I want to feel better and not think of it but it's always coming in my head and I don't like picturing him doing all his reckless sexual activities from the past. I love him so much and I know he does too. It really sucks because it's something that just comes randomly and it completely ruins my mood. I want to know if anyone else is feeling this way or can explain to me how I can overcome this. I know it's not his fault and people all over the world do reckless things with ought thinking when there single. I guess it's that I love him so much that everything hurts to think.
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