Hello my name is Douglas, I joined this community November of 2014 and was active until my ex broke up with me (July 2015). I want to thank the many people who helped me in the past (forgive the misspelling of names, I'm going off of a hazy memory) Pettles, Walrukus, R&R
and so many more whom their names are just on the tip of my tongue.
I am from Maine and I fell for a girl named Brittaney, from Nebraska. I met her on a chatting app "palringo". We were in a bad place at the time and we helped each other with our struggles (self-destructive behaviors [me] and loss of family members [her]). Her family did not know about me and my family did not approve of my relationship and claimed I was a sinner and they disowned me. I came to this community many times because she was my first girlfriend and I didn't know what to do. Communication was hard and torture because of the secrecy. I loved her and I gave her my life. She was everything to me. My first love. She was 18 and I was 20.
I'm afraid that I was just a distraction for her. Her life was chaotic (split parents, alcoholism, abuse) and I was her light. No matter how bad her day was I was always there to make her smile and take her away from her painful life.
Unfortunately, she tore my heart to shreds. She was seeing other men in secret and having relations with them. I knew she was doing it. Sometimes I would wait a week not knowing if she was alive or dead before her next text or email would come through. I loved her so much and I was tormented. She knew she was hurting me and me with my big heart, I could not let her go. And she didn't want to let me go. But it needed to happen. And after crying for a week I gave her an opening and an opertunity to make a choice and she took it and broke it off between us.
At that time I was ready to die, she was my whole world. But I had to let her go. I stopped emailing and snapchat and everything and I was a broken mess.
I vowed that I would never have another long distance relationship. It just hurts so much. But I was without my best friend and wondering alone and I escaped to the only thing I know.. The internet. Palringo.
Palringo is not a dating app but you still meet so many people there, broken and in need of love. Idk why. I'm drawn to these people. That's when I met Tiffany...
I wonder if anyone remembers me? Anyways I'm at work and on lunch and only have so much time. I'll post her story when I get home either tonight or tomorrow.
and so many more whom their names are just on the tip of my tongue.
I am from Maine and I fell for a girl named Brittaney, from Nebraska. I met her on a chatting app "palringo". We were in a bad place at the time and we helped each other with our struggles (self-destructive behaviors [me] and loss of family members [her]). Her family did not know about me and my family did not approve of my relationship and claimed I was a sinner and they disowned me. I came to this community many times because she was my first girlfriend and I didn't know what to do. Communication was hard and torture because of the secrecy. I loved her and I gave her my life. She was everything to me. My first love. She was 18 and I was 20.
I'm afraid that I was just a distraction for her. Her life was chaotic (split parents, alcoholism, abuse) and I was her light. No matter how bad her day was I was always there to make her smile and take her away from her painful life.
Unfortunately, she tore my heart to shreds. She was seeing other men in secret and having relations with them. I knew she was doing it. Sometimes I would wait a week not knowing if she was alive or dead before her next text or email would come through. I loved her so much and I was tormented. She knew she was hurting me and me with my big heart, I could not let her go. And she didn't want to let me go. But it needed to happen. And after crying for a week I gave her an opening and an opertunity to make a choice and she took it and broke it off between us.
At that time I was ready to die, she was my whole world. But I had to let her go. I stopped emailing and snapchat and everything and I was a broken mess.
I vowed that I would never have another long distance relationship. It just hurts so much. But I was without my best friend and wondering alone and I escaped to the only thing I know.. The internet. Palringo.
Palringo is not a dating app but you still meet so many people there, broken and in need of love. Idk why. I'm drawn to these people. That's when I met Tiffany...
I wonder if anyone remembers me? Anyways I'm at work and on lunch and only have so much time. I'll post her story when I get home either tonight or tomorrow.
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