I Stop!
Last night, i had the chance to talk to my SO, i asked if i can have at least 5 mins to talk to him and settle things.
when he say okay, i started chatting and telling him what i really feel and observed after the visit. i told him everything's changed, his attitude, his time and the way he treated me. i told him; "i guess you need more time, and i know you need to prepare for your new project overseas." which he said that even his father's call he cant take it. but before we start chatting, he message me that he's going out with his friends, then suddenly he reason out that he cant even take his dad's call because he was too busy, but have time with friends. but because i'm tired of arguments i just keep quiet. then he told me i can do whatever my decision is.. then after that he message me that he feel sad about the separation, but honestly i can't feel that he is really regretting that,. then he ask me if he can still message me once he settle everything. i just told him, "i'm Okay, but what if i found someone else??? i didn't say i will find as soon as possible. just what if, i met someone else in the future??? anyway, after crying for almost a week and those anxiety.. i feel relieved! at least in some way i feel great because he listens..
in god's time. if we're both meant for each other, whatever happens out paths will cross again...
when he say okay, i started chatting and telling him what i really feel and observed after the visit. i told him everything's changed, his attitude, his time and the way he treated me. i told him; "i guess you need more time, and i know you need to prepare for your new project overseas." which he said that even his father's call he cant take it. but before we start chatting, he message me that he's going out with his friends, then suddenly he reason out that he cant even take his dad's call because he was too busy, but have time with friends. but because i'm tired of arguments i just keep quiet. then he told me i can do whatever my decision is.. then after that he message me that he feel sad about the separation, but honestly i can't feel that he is really regretting that,. then he ask me if he can still message me once he settle everything. i just told him, "i'm Okay, but what if i found someone else??? i didn't say i will find as soon as possible. just what if, i met someone else in the future??? anyway, after crying for almost a week and those anxiety.. i feel relieved! at least in some way i feel great because he listens..
in god's time. if we're both meant for each other, whatever happens out paths will cross again...
It seems like he doesn't want to talk to me anymore and it damn hurts me
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