After a while of trying to figure out why I was getting so anxious and insecure over little weird things, I realised it comes down to one thing - I don't trust him. The thing is, I have no idea why I don't. He hasn't given me a reason not to, and he hasn't got a dodgy past or anything.
It's driving me insane because I have anxiety anyway, let alone when I imagine crazy situations in my head. For example, he is going abroad for a week soon with a colleague. His colleague is kind of a bad influence in my opinion, and it just gives me this crazy image of them having some wild week partying every night. Even my SO said he is looking forward to partying with the colleagues from this different branch, and damn, it makes me insecure.
I just wondered if anyone has had any insecurity/trust issues, and if you overcame them, how? I overthink things a lot and feel like a total crazy person when I get like this.
I don't want to talk to SO about it, before anyone suggests that. He would TOTALLY not get it, nor reassure me, and I'd rather he didn't know I had such massive insecurity issues about this. I know he trusts me completely so I feel bad about it.
It's driving me insane because I have anxiety anyway, let alone when I imagine crazy situations in my head. For example, he is going abroad for a week soon with a colleague. His colleague is kind of a bad influence in my opinion, and it just gives me this crazy image of them having some wild week partying every night. Even my SO said he is looking forward to partying with the colleagues from this different branch, and damn, it makes me insecure.
I just wondered if anyone has had any insecurity/trust issues, and if you overcame them, how? I overthink things a lot and feel like a total crazy person when I get like this.
I don't want to talk to SO about it, before anyone suggests that. He would TOTALLY not get it, nor reassure me, and I'd rather he didn't know I had such massive insecurity issues about this. I know he trusts me completely so I feel bad about it.
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