Long distance friendship- could it be more?
Okay, last July I went to visit a friend that moved out of state. I was debating on moving there with her, so she wanted to try and "hook me up" with a coworker. We talked for about a month before the visit. We hit it off and both were excited/nervous to meet one another. I spent about 5 days with him (other than my friend) we had such a great connection and instantly wanted to be together. I had never felt so comfortable and connected with someone. Our personalities just fit so well together we can joke and laugh yet have serious conversations. The day came where I was leaving and we decided to not be together and wait to see what happens as in if i actually end up moving down... time went by and we still talked every single day became the best of friends. But eventually I did not end up moving down and he ended up trying to make things work out with his ex. And eventually I started dating someone as well. Here we are today, both of our situations did not workout and we still talk a lot! We can talk to one another about anything, we have mutual respect and trust one another which is big because we both have trust issues. But we just talk as friends. I have been hung up on him since day one. Even when I was with someone else I could not help compare, and my feelings never went away. I have never been...so sure of someone, actually I have never been sure of someone other than him.
He isnt the type to express his feelings he more so shows it. They are deeper than he portrays. He is a cancer. He will not come out and say how much i mean to him but he goes out of his way for me and you can just tell from his actions. But he does say he trust me and cares about me. We both will randomly send eachother things..
Anyways, the other night he was texting me while drunk. He came out and said that he loved me. I said it back. (we have never came close to saying this) Anyways, the next day he asked me what I thought when he told me he loved me. I proceeded to tell him that I wondered if he had meant it because he was intoxicated.
He informed me that he did in fact mean it he said "I have my reasons why" and he said he also wondered if I had meant it when I said it back or if I just said it because he did. I told him i did mean it too. We didn't really ponder on that conversation much afterward. Just still the same everyday conversations..
But what do I do from here? I mean part of me wants to pour my heart out but i do not want to scare him off. But then I feel maybe I should just be patient and wait for him to come around...
I think we are both scared to let out our true feelings. I want him to know exactly what I think of him, but i feel like it might freak him out. Or I could be wrong?
I have been thinking of asking him to come visit or going to down to visit.. maybe go from there?
Any advice would be much appreciated.
I honestly would do a lot to be with him but in the end just want him to be happy!
Some people think im crazy for feeling this way about someone I met for 5 days, maybe I am but life is too short to later on regret not going after something you want.
What do you think I should do?
He isnt the type to express his feelings he more so shows it. They are deeper than he portrays. He is a cancer. He will not come out and say how much i mean to him but he goes out of his way for me and you can just tell from his actions. But he does say he trust me and cares about me. We both will randomly send eachother things..
Anyways, the other night he was texting me while drunk. He came out and said that he loved me. I said it back. (we have never came close to saying this) Anyways, the next day he asked me what I thought when he told me he loved me. I proceeded to tell him that I wondered if he had meant it because he was intoxicated.
He informed me that he did in fact mean it he said "I have my reasons why" and he said he also wondered if I had meant it when I said it back or if I just said it because he did. I told him i did mean it too. We didn't really ponder on that conversation much afterward. Just still the same everyday conversations..
But what do I do from here? I mean part of me wants to pour my heart out but i do not want to scare him off. But then I feel maybe I should just be patient and wait for him to come around...
I think we are both scared to let out our true feelings. I want him to know exactly what I think of him, but i feel like it might freak him out. Or I could be wrong?
I have been thinking of asking him to come visit or going to down to visit.. maybe go from there?
Any advice would be much appreciated.
I honestly would do a lot to be with him but in the end just want him to be happy!
Some people think im crazy for feeling this way about someone I met for 5 days, maybe I am but life is too short to later on regret not going after something you want.
What do you think I should do?
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