I've been dating my bf for 2 years. He went back to his country last year and I visited him this February for 2 weeks which was amazing. He's sweet, kind, cute and I feel comfortable when we're together.
However, after I came back, I felt so down because I didn't wanna leave him. Then I started having doubts like "Do I really love him?" and feeling depressed all the time like I've never been happy. I couldn't feel the love as much as before. I couldn't sleep well and I was unsure of everything.
I feel better now since I've been seeing my counselor but I feel like something's different, I feel distant and numb. His behaviors irritate me sometimes. I feel sad when I see the pics of us. It scares me because I love him and I want to make it work.
I couldn't stand feeling this way so I booked the tickets to see him next month.
I'm anxious more than excited.
What if I fell out of love with this great guy!?
What if I couldn't feel anything when he hugged me and kissed me!?
What if we couldn't have fun together like before!?
Ah I can't remember how nice it was like to be like together!
Is everything gonna be ok?
Is it normal to have these anxious thoughts? Or it means I don't love him enough?
However, after I came back, I felt so down because I didn't wanna leave him. Then I started having doubts like "Do I really love him?" and feeling depressed all the time like I've never been happy. I couldn't feel the love as much as before. I couldn't sleep well and I was unsure of everything.
I feel better now since I've been seeing my counselor but I feel like something's different, I feel distant and numb. His behaviors irritate me sometimes. I feel sad when I see the pics of us. It scares me because I love him and I want to make it work.
I couldn't stand feeling this way so I booked the tickets to see him next month.
I'm anxious more than excited.
What if I fell out of love with this great guy!?
What if I couldn't feel anything when he hugged me and kissed me!?
What if we couldn't have fun together like before!?
Ah I can't remember how nice it was like to be like together!
Is everything gonna be ok?
Is it normal to have these anxious thoughts? Or it means I don't love him enough?
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