Hey there ladies and gentlemen. I know someone out there is going through the same situation as I am or at least had been in this situation. I went to college in the Philippines and my girlfriend right now was one of my classmates. You might say I should know her better by this time, matter of fact, I do know her very well. I had a crush on her in 1st year college. I was courting her while we were in 2nd year (sophomore year) but she wasn't ready, I didn't know she still loves her high school boyfriend at that time. Yes, we were texting sometimes but never really talked in class. She was always with her best friend whom happened to be one of our classmates too. As the months passed by, 2nd year was almost done, I was still hoping that she would like me and yes there were some improvements. But then I lost hope because we never got out of friendzone and still haven't talk with each other in class. We went out a few times but nobody knew. I felt like she's ashamed of me. 3rd year college, I knew she was giving me a chance but then I met this girl who is close to my age but she was in her 1st year (same course) ... She was also from the US so when I started talking to her, we were in the same page. The girl I was courting found out what was going on and stopped talking to me. I had a great time with that girl from the US, but then some crap happened and our relationship was ruined. Didn't talk to me for about a month for no clear reason. I texted my classmate (the girl I was courting before) and tried to vent. She was there for me. We started hanging out again but as friends only. Then my girlfriend that time wanted to fix our relationship after a month of ignoring me so my classmate had to give ways again. Months passes by and it was almost graduation before I ended up my relationship with the US girl because she was so crazy and I knew nothing good was happening. My course need an exam to be licensed. Three of us didn't go to the same study center as the others (from my class). My crush since 1st year went with others, the last time I saw her was graduation day. This is the crucial moment, I tried to text her again after hurting her twice. She was fine with me, still friends. I knew she missed me too because we started seeing each other again even though we were both busy studying for the big exam. That time I wasn't talking to any girl but her. Our friendship became better than how it was before. To me, we were just friends because I knew I didn't have chance anymore. Until one day, she asked me about our status because she realized that we were dating. Yes, I was so happy to hear that so I told her what I feel. Few months later, I introduced her to my mother because she knew I had a crush on her for a long time. We both got home and I didn't even ask her to be my girlfriend but she said yes (I still have the screenshot of her message) .... the sad part is, I'm going back to the states in 3 weeks. Fast forward, we're in a long distance relationship just like that. First few weeks was fine because I know how much I love her. But as the time passes by, I know something has changed. One year later, here I am back in my own country just to be with her but there are signs that she doesn't really love me. I know someone out there knew that feeling when your SO want someone else. I understand that she's busy with her job but if you truly love someone, you will do your best to show it. I was expecting this to happen before I visit her. I'm 2 weeks away from leaving again and I want to tell her that I will give her the chance to be happy with someone who is close to her physically. I can't give her that, I don't want her to miss out on something that can make her happy. Don't get me wrong, I don't have someone else in the states. As much as possible, I want that lady to be my last but I know I have to give her up at some point.
Now that you know my story, my question is should I keep loving her or do us both a favor. She said she loves me but her actions says otherwise. I'm thinking, we're on our way to 2nd year (in a long distance relationship). I know someone will come along in our lives, it's inevitable and I don't want her to miss out that chance. The chance of having a boyfriend near her. I love that girl so much, I respect her until now, I have lots of patience towards her, I'm happy to see her but it hurts on my part.
Thank you all and God bless you.
Now that you know my story, my question is should I keep loving her or do us both a favor. She said she loves me but her actions says otherwise. I'm thinking, we're on our way to 2nd year (in a long distance relationship). I know someone will come along in our lives, it's inevitable and I don't want her to miss out that chance. The chance of having a boyfriend near her. I love that girl so much, I respect her until now, I have lots of patience towards her, I'm happy to see her but it hurts on my part.
Thank you all and God bless you.
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