I feel horrible.

[eomtrosim]

Hi, I just joined this because I am so sad and depressed and I don't know what to do. My boyfriend and I have been together for 9 months, and we were talking for an entire year before that. He left for home yesterday, and normally I just get numb and the pain goes away, but our feelings just get stronger each time he visits and it really just hurts so bad right now. I don't mean to sound dreary, and I know maybe others have worse situations than I do, but I just need advice. I can't distract myself. I just can't. I'm sitting here feeling so empty and like I can't move, and it's just so hard this time. I'm so committed to him and I will never give up just because it hurts but I am trying to find ways to cope. I think it made it worse because he left the same day we went to my grandmother's funeral. I mean, I'm sure it made it worse. I just feel dumb and sad and I feel dumb for having to complain and I don't know, I'm just really struggling right now. I can't even cry like I cried so much yesterday because of all of the different events that happened and now it just feels like pain lol. I'm just ranting but can someone tell me what to do because I know it's hard to understand but I feel like I can't move, I am just sitting here and I'm hating my life and I feel alone. Thanks for reading this.

[Elzah]

Hi there,
I'm so sorry about your grandmother, I can only imagine how much it hurts
First of all, tell yourself that you're not alone, you never are
I know how desperate life can make us feel sometimes, but you need to be strong and to try to focus on the positive. Yes, your boyfriend left, but you will see him again, and he will be there, to support you through this, no matter how far he physically is from you, because he loves you. Also, talking about what you feel, your grief and your pain to someone physically here for you, and someone that you trust can really help you out, maybe someone who is going through the same thing (a family member ?), and thus heal and move on together, feeling less alone.

Your boyfriend left, because he had to, but I'm sure he would give anything to stay to support you, vent at him about how you feel, maybe already try to plan the next visit, to distract your mind ?

Don't feel dumb about complaining, you have all the reasons to do, and no one should ever feel bad about how they feel and about expressing it to others.

I don't know if this helped, I hope it did at least a bit
I wish you the best