Really Need Help

[Saiko]

Me and my girlfriend have been in a long distance relationship for around 10 months now, our anniversary is in may and im meant to be visiting back to celebrate it with her and attend Megacon in Orlando Florida. Now, I'm 18, I've visited her twice last year and have spend around 33 days with her total counting the days there. She is amazing, she makes me smile, I feel as if I can do anything when I'm around her, She's not only my girlfriend but my best friend. When we went to Disneyland I proposed to her infront of a crowd of people and she said YES.

Here is the thing.

We are both 18.

We both don't work (I got fired recently because of depression being away from her)
So no income is coming as of now.

She has really bad depression and anxiety problems.

I've been with her every single time she's been depressed, our time zones are 5 hours apart She lives in Florida and I live in Scotland and I've literally answered everyone of her phone calls no matter how busy I am and have been there for her the whole way.

She has low self esteem, she didn't finish high school, she has no friends and doesn't want any, she really needs me there physically, She's getting bored of everything in life.

She cuts herself.

Her past is so messed up so I don't blame her.

I wish I had parents to help support me funding my next trip but sadly I don't.

Her parents are very strict and don't believe in negativity and depression.

She said to me last night that she would kill herself if I don't come before may.

What do I do? I have no money
I need her.
She's so amazing and talented.

PS: I've spent around £2000 in total on her, I'm not braging, it just that I'm not good with money and should of saved a little.

I could tell you more about how amazing Orlando was, meeting her the first time, both of us crying in each others arms when we met. Taking her out to dinner every night, sleeping in the same bed with her and waking up at 1pm everyday.

I miss her so much. I fucking do.

I need her.

Please help.

I'm not sure if I'm allowed to post this her but here is my gofundme, admins if it's not allowed remove this post, I understand.

I put our pictures of us together up there.

Edited: can't post link to gofundme.

[Michelle]

I’m sorry we don’t allow gofundme links on our forum. Most people here are scraping together their money to afford their own trips to see their SO’s.

You can’t be your girlfriend’s everything. She needs help and the best thing you can do for her is to encourage her to seek that help. Please check out https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ there is a hotline she can call, and also resources for you that you can use to help her.

[Kerry92]

I agree with Michelle on this one you can't be everything your girlfriend needs that is physcially and mentally impossible.

I understand your need to be there and help her as we all do when our SO has problems or is upspet but relying on your SO too much can put massive strain your relationship on both sides and can have dire results. The best you can do is just be there for her when you can and help listen to her and giver her support on going to seek professional help.

Also you yourself should maybe seek some sort of support for your own health all this stress and worry about you girlfriend cant be good for you. I know you want to help her but helping yourself first will better your chance of helping her.

Also I'm from Scotland myself too which part are you from?