Alone and sad ...

[Mariaa]

Hey guys, this is maybe not this forum related but I like this community and there are good friends in here so I feel like sharing my feelings with you , I'm so down and desperate.
My life has been difficult for most of the times. I'm at my 7th year college ( it's some long studies) , now I'm still living with my parents , got no money, so no parallel activities that might at least change the situation a bit. My mom is bipolar and a very severe case. My dad is starting to have some overwhelming health issues as well, loss of eye vision and prostate problems. It's so hurtful to see them that way . The house environment is very depressing . .. I've got nothing happy in my life, and nothing exciting to live for . The college is too much pressure, I've got to work hours for no much just to support a part of the fees and my life is meaningless. I've got not much friends, the best friends i had moved away some years ago. My ex who in the beginning of my relationship was a real delight in my life , it's only when I said that at least life started smiling at me again that all crushed and it turned out to be a toxic relationship that gave me pain more that happiness. I'm sick of fighting , I'm tired of hoping that the future is the best but being disappointed. I'm willing to move to another country, better and start a new life there but it's a long process and I don't know what to do with my parents. I know I sound like complaining and I know it's not the forum for that, I'm sorry before anything. I'm feeling aline and very miserable.
I'm hopeless ....

[MyRose]

Hey there,

I hope things are getting better since you've written this. I am here for you and I am sure several other people are there for you, too. Regardless of anything that you are currently going through, I sure do hope that recognize your worth in this world.


Always remember you are loved!

[Kerry92]

You are not hopeless!

You are a very strong and beautiful person. What you have done in writting this is proof of that. It takes a lot to open up and admit ones feelings to others and to yourself but you are not alone in this.

I understand your college work is strenuous but keep it up! You stuck it out this far so dont give up when you are so close to achieving your end goal You can do this!

As for your living situations I am sorry to hear of your parents and how its affecting the general atmosphere of your living situation. I am sure there are more than a few members here who can relate to your situation and may be able to give you sone advice. Its never easy watching your loved ones suffer but the best you can do is be ther for them. I hope it improves soon tho for all of you.

I am sorry to hear of your relationship turning out not to be quite what you thought but that is life....unfortunately. Sometimes it builds us up on a pedestal and everything seems amazing and perfect only to come crashing down when we least expect it. Altho it was rough you are still here and still willing to fight and live which is a massive positive. You are strong and brave.

Just know that you are never alone you said it yourself the community here is amazing and always helpful and we will be here to lend an ear or give advice.

Stay strong things will get better!

[Mariaa]

Thank you guys, your words mean a lot to me. I really appreciate that. I don't know how I will get out of all the situation, but I'll try to hang on in there. I even have troubles writing my thesis, I'm sick of everything. My colleagues at University are all graduated now, with a happy life, a partner ... I'm happy for them all but it hurt when my circumstances make it very hard for me to find a little light of happiness.

[Lyssa]

Hi!

First of all, can I just say that you have nothing to say sorry for. Never feel apologetic for feeling sad/alone/mad/etc. With that being said, my heart goes out to you and the problems that you are facing with school, your family and the other things you mentioned. But one thing I hope you can remember is that nothing in life is permanent. Were you living the same life now that you were living 10 years ago? Everyone has their own life and their own stages. Some people that are my age - 22 years old - have a full-time job, a husband, a baby, and an apartment of their own. Other friends of mine - like me - are still in college, living with mom and dad and working part-time.

It was so hard to believe people when I was going through my horrible high school years that it would get better. It is so exhausting to wake up day by day and see no change. Your mind can trick you into thinking that the fight is for nothing. But 4 years later, I can see that they were 100% correct. You can't ever lose sight of that hope and belief because it's more than a belief; it's the truth. I feel like a lot of us here are also believing in a better future considering this is about long distance. And I know that you're happy for your friends but also hurt by seeing their happiness, and that's completely okay. But understand, you are not exempt from a better future. If I can have a better future, so can you. You deserve it just as much as your friends. You will not be left out.

Just keep on keeping on as hard as it can be to believe that your life will eventually piece itself together through all of the hardship. It'll make you stronger. You're already strong for finding a place to talk about it... and time is a very powerful thing.

I hope this gave you some perspective

[Mariaa]

Thank you Lyssa, reading your reply made me have tears in my eyes.You are totally right. I'm so grateful I've found good people in here, my only support during these dark days.