Oh. dear.

[nicole]

This post is a complete u-turn on yesterday's post, just to warn you guys I wrote that post waiting for my SO to get home from work. He got back at 7 his time, which meant midnight my time, so I was already exhausted. He then tells me he had to work today too, because they need to get this package out today. We didn't talk long, as I knew I'd talk to him today as he was going in for like 2 hours tops, then he'd come back and we'd have a dinner and movie skype date.

But today came, and I waited and waited and waited. My soar throat had developed into a full blown cold too, but I sat patiently, and made the most of the time alone by doing some of my project work. He finally came in at 2 his time, 7 my time. He apologized for being a bad boyfriend, which I told him was silly, I understand that he has to go into work on weekends sometimes, especially when they're busy. We rearranged the date for tomorrow and we talked for about an hour and started watching TV together a bit later.

Whilst we were watching TV, I saw he answered his phone, but just thought it was his friend Ryan- My SO is bestman at Ryan's wedding next week, so I was like Ryan is probably freaking out again about flower arrangements or something. But no, I got "I gotta go now girlfriend"- his parents had called and were coming over for dinner.

And then, I just burst into tears. and I felt awful because I know all this isn't his fault, and he looked horrified I was crying. I just took myself offscreen and bawled my eyes out, whilst he was sat there asking me to turn it back on. But I just couldn't. I don't even know why I started crying I'm tired and sick and missing him like crazy lately, but the thought went through my head that I was punishing him for not paying me more attention these passed few days.

But I know it's not his fault about going into work, he's near the bottom of the hierarchy so he has to go in when they tell him, and I understand he can't really get out of his parents coming, they live 2 hours away and aren't in town often. I've gone from being so happy to down and utterly confused in the space of 24 hours. I don't know what to do, I feel wretched as it is with this sickness, now I feel even worse for making him feel awful too. I know he's going to be moody all the way through dinner with his parents and they've done nothing wrong either Sometimes this time difference just downright sucks

[folclor]

*huggles* I know exactly how you feel. ^^; I bet everyone on here does. It hits us all sometimes and I bet things will get better soon. ^^ I hope you feel better and I bet you two'll be fine. ^^ I know it's harder to explain and I know guys a lot of times don't get it, but it's probably just that you miss him. Lovesickness sucks sometimes.

[paulawriteslove]

*hugs* I know exactly how you feel! I have moments where I burst into tears randomly too!! I've learned to just cry it out and then when I'm done crying I think of all the good things I have that makes everything better

[lisaar910]

*hugs* I'm sure he'll understand that you're not feeling well and miss him. Sometimes you just need to cry!

[Karringtyn]

First of all...expressing your emotions is GOOD. Letting it out instead of holding it in is wonderful.

Life happens. There are things that happen that keep things from happening the way we want it to/had it planned. So we have to learn to roll with it instead of letting it bring us down. He loves you. He can't help it that his parents were coming over. That was unexpected...it's not like he is putting you on hold hon. He has his life...he is busy with his job, has a wedding coming up, and just life. Support him, cherish him, and talk to him.

[BluePikachu]

Oh gosh how I know how you feel. We have a 6 hour time difference, and I miss my SO like crazy and I last talked to him a few hours ago, but it wasn't much and he isn't online anymore and I just convinced myself that crying wouldn't help anything, since nothing was wrong. *group hugs* It's all going to be ok

[DarkSolitary]

Even though I am fortunate to only have a 2 hour time difference between me and my SO, I still feel that way alot :X *hugs* It will get better ^^ Sometimes you just need to cry. Just recently I had a 45 minute crying session. Was not fun but it made me feel better :3

[Dauntedpoet]

[QUOTE=nicole;40894] I feel awful, I know all this isn't your fault, and you looked horrified But I just couldn't turn it back on. I don't even know why I started crying I'm tired and sick and missing you like crazy lately, but the thought went through my head that I was punishing you for not paying me more attention these passed few days.

But I know it's not your fault about going into work, your near the bottom of the hierarchy so you have to go in when they tell you, and I understand you can't really get out of your parents coming, they live 2 hours away and aren't in town often.
I feel wretched as it is with this sickness, now I feel even worse for making you feel awful too. I [QUOTE]

You said it all honey, Just tell him exactly that, and cut yourself some slack, you don't feel well!
We have all been there, Hugs and feel better

[Tanja]

I know that feeling - sometimes your emotions just take over you completely and there's nothing you can do about it, even the littlest thing can trigger you off and you go from being happy and bouncy to a weeping wreck. Women and their emotions

It makes it loads worse when you're sick cause you're just not well and you miss him more than ever, hoping he'd be there to take care of you but once you feel better you can start thinking positively again! Just cry your eyes out and get a goodnight sleep, it does wonders to your moods *hugs*

[Silviar]

If you want to feel bad about the bad timing, do that, but don't feel bad about feeling down - it happens, and it's a normal part of life. You're sick, tired, and drawn out. Get some extra rest, concentrate on how much he loves you, and when you get up cherish your time together knowing that the only thing able to drag him away is the required family/work time. And let him know you're just needing some extra cuddles because you're sick and it's making your system outta whack.

Been there, and done that, lemme tell you what XD

[noodle]

*hugs* I know exactly how that feels! had it so many times lol
mostly I just let him go since I basically know there is no way to keep him at that point anyway and than just cry myself to sleep.
I do stay online on skype with my phone or even leave the laptop turned on cause I know he feels horrible and eventually asap will return cause I cried before lol I know this is probably awefull but well what can I do? The thought of not stayin on and missin him would kill me in the mornin when I wake!
So when he eventually gets on I ask him to cam-snuggle with me and than I'm all good again
I think there's actually nothin you can do really... it's life... I'm pretty sure we'd all feel like this even if we'd be livin with our partner
Just try to calm yourself and if it helps cry it all out
Tomorrow is another day and it can get only better

[nicole]

thanks guys, I appreciate it, and knowing it's not just me being a bitch helps! I cried myself to sleep afterwards which helped I think. Whilst I know this separation is going to be good for us in the long-run, I can't help but resent it and times like this. It's hard when you can't hug and make up after an arguement or misunderstanding

We were on skype nearly all day yesterday, it was awkward at first, because we were both sat apologizing to each other for a while, but I think we're both feeling a bit better about it today. I feel bad for his poor mother though, I think he took it out on her a lot =/ It's a rough patch, we've done well not to really have one up until now, we'll be back to sending joke presents to people by the end of the week I'm sure but honestly, thanks for everything guys, you all really helped