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    My boyfriend doesn't mind the distance but I do...

    I have been in an LDR for almost one year and I am deeply attached to my partner. We are 20 and 21 years old respectively, both university students. For 9 months we were on a different continent (him in Europe and me in Canada, he visited last Christmas), now we are in the same country but a different city. I love the time we spend together but I find the repeated separations very difficult, the loneliness and longing weigh down on me quite a lot. In order to feel better I would need regular contact (texts / FaceTime / phone calls), but he is very busy and independent. He doesn't like writing so texts are short and rare, he can go for a few days with no contact at all, and FaceTime session are usually just once/maybe twice a week depending on his studies, his family and his friends. When we have to separate at the end of a visit, I feel devastated and heartbroken (although it might not be very noticeable to him as I usually break down after he's gone), while he never seems very upset. When it comes to planning weekends together, he often takes last-minute decisions so there is a lot of uncertainty for me and most of the time I don't have a fixed reunion date to look forward to, which doesn't help with the sadness and anxiety.

    All these factors make me think that he is handling the distance a lot better than I am, or even that he likes his independence and might not be bothered by the fact that we live away from each other. (Just to make things clear, this doesn't mean I doubt his feelings or think he might be cheating or losing interest; he is very honest and showers me with affection when we are together. The issues only arise when we are apart.)

    Knowing this, I am not sure what to do: should I tell him how much I suffer from the distance, and try to ask for more contact? I am afraid it might make me look clingy, demanding and annoying; but at the same time I feel like it might be helpful to open up about this problem. I am also a bit concerned for our future. For the next 2 years we can't live closer to each other because we are studying at different universities. However, I would REALLY like to end the distance as soon as I finish my master's degree in 2 years; I am thinking of applying to his school for a PhD. I would need to know during this winter if he agrees with the idea so I can start to network and handle the application process early enough. The problem is, I am really afraid to ask. If he indeed doesn't mind living apart, there are risks that he won't be interested in closing the distance, or even that he doesn't see a future together. So my second question is: would it be a good idea to have this talk about the future after more than a year of being together? Would it be reasonable to close the distance after 3 years together, despite our young age? Or am I just rushing things and expecting too much?

    Any advice would be appreciated, especially if some of you have been in a similar situation with different communication needs / attachment styles from both partners. Thank you in advance!

    #2
    Definitely talk to him about this. He may not see your suffering, or he may be unaware. I would guess him being busy and distant is to help him cope when you are not together. I understand that too, as I can go through those phases. My SO does too.

    When I left on my last visit, I felt like my man didn't want to be affectionate with me. He assured me when I mentioned it afterwards that that wasn't the case. I guess because it was our first meeting, and he was leaving me at the airport he just felt overwhelmed and kinda awkward.

    I am currently having a seriously awkward talk with my SO at the moment, which I hate, but it has to be done. There is no other way when you're LD, I'm afraid.
    We have a plan to close the distance, but it may have to change entirely now, hence this current awkward talk.

    Be honest, be open, and good luck.

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      #3
      Thank you very much for your kind answer! That's an interesting way of seeing things, I had never considered the possibility that him keeping a distance and being so busy (also outside of school) might be a coping mechanism. I guess that could be because I function a bit differently and being busy doesn't help me detach from him; even when I have exams or a million things to do, I still think of him and instantly answer his texts. My coping mechanism is to be as available as possible for him, and hope for some kind of contact or interaction every day. Apparently it's not working so well, lol

      I'll definitely try having that talk about our perception of the distance and our views for the future sometime in the next few months. It will be good to let him know how I reall feel about the separation and how serious I am about this relationship.

      I hope your discussion with your SO is going well and you will be able to close the distance soon! I have seen in one of your other posts that you are going for 10 months without a visit, I really admire you for pulling that off! I don't think I would be able to stay away for that long given how over-attached I am to my SO... All the best to you for the next 4 months and for the amazing reunion afterwards!

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