I think I have posted about my problem quite often on here recently (especially on my blogs).
Eventhough things are alright with my SO I still always find a reason to randomly get mad at him.
With no purpose or intention tho.
Like yesterday.
We talked a lil but I had to leave to bring back home my 2 friends cause I have offered them to bring them home.
I asked him if he'd be on and he said he will most likely so be basically agreed on havin some time alone, just him and me, since we haven't for quite a while.
After about an hour I got home again (I didnt chill much at my friends place cause I knew how sad my SO was cause he had nothin to do this weekend so I thought I'd get back home soon).
So I got home and he wasn't on. I messaged him and he still didn't get on. After 3hrs he posted a status on Facebook, yet didn't contact me. I got mad/sad/dissapointed.
I messaged him sayin that Im glad he found somethin to do and that I hope that he is doin it with someone.
A while later he messaged me apologizing and that he was home with his family watchin a basketball game and couldnt get on cause of that.
I said its ok yet that he couldve told me that he's home. He did say he was goin home but I thought he'd gat back to his dorm while he thought I'd get that he was stayin at home. There we go: missunderstanding.
So ok, I apologized and said I didnt quite get it.
Yet I started an argument. Basically I said that things kinda changed and that I'm not sure how to say it but that I feel like I give but don't get much.
We talked and he ended up tellin me that he was at a studying abroad meeting last week and that the possibilities of him doing his next semester over here are rather good and that he is even talkin to people and lookin for some way to do some volunteer job next summer in Croatia, so he can be with me and see my real home, cause he always wanted to.
Why he didn't tell me? He wanted to surprise me... He wanted it to be a surprise on our 1 year anniversary.
And now I feel horrible. He said he's not mad at me but that he hates how I get mad at him for no reason really and apologized for not being available as much as he used to be.
I notice myself how I easily get pissed at him. Message him to please get on and talk to me.
I can't remember the last time it was really just him and me, for more than just half an hour. Whenever I'm alone or have time, he is busy or has friends over and vice versa.
I need your help guys. I don't know how to controll this feelin.
How can I distract myself or whatever to not get pissed at him immediately?
I basically know I will eventually lose him if I don't change this adittued.
And I'm so scared of it
Eventhough things are alright with my SO I still always find a reason to randomly get mad at him.
With no purpose or intention tho.
Like yesterday.
We talked a lil but I had to leave to bring back home my 2 friends cause I have offered them to bring them home.
I asked him if he'd be on and he said he will most likely so be basically agreed on havin some time alone, just him and me, since we haven't for quite a while.
After about an hour I got home again (I didnt chill much at my friends place cause I knew how sad my SO was cause he had nothin to do this weekend so I thought I'd get back home soon).
So I got home and he wasn't on. I messaged him and he still didn't get on. After 3hrs he posted a status on Facebook, yet didn't contact me. I got mad/sad/dissapointed.
I messaged him sayin that Im glad he found somethin to do and that I hope that he is doin it with someone.
A while later he messaged me apologizing and that he was home with his family watchin a basketball game and couldnt get on cause of that.
I said its ok yet that he couldve told me that he's home. He did say he was goin home but I thought he'd gat back to his dorm while he thought I'd get that he was stayin at home. There we go: missunderstanding.
So ok, I apologized and said I didnt quite get it.
Yet I started an argument. Basically I said that things kinda changed and that I'm not sure how to say it but that I feel like I give but don't get much.
We talked and he ended up tellin me that he was at a studying abroad meeting last week and that the possibilities of him doing his next semester over here are rather good and that he is even talkin to people and lookin for some way to do some volunteer job next summer in Croatia, so he can be with me and see my real home, cause he always wanted to.
Why he didn't tell me? He wanted to surprise me... He wanted it to be a surprise on our 1 year anniversary.
And now I feel horrible. He said he's not mad at me but that he hates how I get mad at him for no reason really and apologized for not being available as much as he used to be.
I notice myself how I easily get pissed at him. Message him to please get on and talk to me.
I can't remember the last time it was really just him and me, for more than just half an hour. Whenever I'm alone or have time, he is busy or has friends over and vice versa.
I need your help guys. I don't know how to controll this feelin.
How can I distract myself or whatever to not get pissed at him immediately?
I basically know I will eventually lose him if I don't change this adittued.
And I'm so scared of it
Comment