...my SO comes through.
I'm not a fan of the "honeymoon" stage. Call me a realist, but I would rather get to the bodily functions, cut-your-toenails-in-bed stage of the relationship when I KNOW a guy is not trying to impress me. So... in my quest to "get real", I have internally been applying the brakes as heavily as I can. For some reason, yesterday, I just had one of those "What the HECK am I thinking", "This is too good to be true" moments, but my SO knew exactly what to say and do to remind me that he's just as much in as I am (isn't it kinda sexy when a GUY admits vulnerability?).
Despite the time difference, he makes it a point to tell me Good Morning every day (even though he's in the middle of his VERY physical job), and he sacrifices sleep to Skype with me every night after I leave work. I know how tired he is, and I have even offered to let him get his rest, but he tells me I'm worth it.
I think my biggest challenge is letting go of past hurts. I was deliriously happy in my last relationship, then the guy totally abandoned me after a job loss. Since then, I've been afraid to be HAPPY. That was also a LDR, but it was only a couple of states apart... not another COUNTRY!!!
Anywho... I just wanted to share that and thank my supporters here. This is new and scary, but I think I'm going to swallow my fears and see how this pans out.
I'm not a fan of the "honeymoon" stage. Call me a realist, but I would rather get to the bodily functions, cut-your-toenails-in-bed stage of the relationship when I KNOW a guy is not trying to impress me. So... in my quest to "get real", I have internally been applying the brakes as heavily as I can. For some reason, yesterday, I just had one of those "What the HECK am I thinking", "This is too good to be true" moments, but my SO knew exactly what to say and do to remind me that he's just as much in as I am (isn't it kinda sexy when a GUY admits vulnerability?).
Despite the time difference, he makes it a point to tell me Good Morning every day (even though he's in the middle of his VERY physical job), and he sacrifices sleep to Skype with me every night after I leave work. I know how tired he is, and I have even offered to let him get his rest, but he tells me I'm worth it.
I think my biggest challenge is letting go of past hurts. I was deliriously happy in my last relationship, then the guy totally abandoned me after a job loss. Since then, I've been afraid to be HAPPY. That was also a LDR, but it was only a couple of states apart... not another COUNTRY!!!
Anywho... I just wanted to share that and thank my supporters here. This is new and scary, but I think I'm going to swallow my fears and see how this pans out.
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