30+ It like just totally hit me

[lilspitfire]

The reality of it just hit me today. I mean I knew it was coming, but now that it's so much closer, I'm seriously freaking out. I'm scared and nervous and excited and happy and impatient and all kinds of things!!! There's only 17 days before my visit. I want it to hurry and then I'll be wanting it to go back to 60 when it's the day before. I feel like I need to do a million things. I know I need to try and relax, but I want it to be perfect. He's feeling the same stuff as me. I feel like screaming with joy and fear at the same time. LOL. How does someone cope with all this? This desperation for it to be here and this inane fear for it to not get here? I just want to get it over with. Not the trip, but the wait. I think I'll be okay when I see him, but I am afraid I might fall apart on the plane. What had you done the whole plane ride there? It's only 3 hours, but I know it will feel like the longest 3 hours of my life. I just wanna shriek. Does anyone mind if I do that here?

Aieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek
Squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eee
Ackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

I still don't feel better. lol. Might scream in my pillow.

[R&R]

It is exciting, isn't it? The wait times seem forever and then when you're there, the time flies. When I'm the one doing the traveling, I always bring a few books for while I'm waiting at the airport and on the plane. If I can engross myself in the story, the anxiousness disappears and the time goes by so much faster. Enjoy your time together!