It's really frusterating!
I really wish i was there to hold her, because she's really having a hard time lately especially today and im not there to hold her 
today while she was at the library she told me she had dark circles under her eyes and she's lost more weight due to the stress lately(thats how her body reacts under stress, she loses weight) and even her roomate has noticed and has told her she looks like hell, she hasent slept too well in the last few days and im hoping she'll be able to tonight, and i new her body needed to de stress so i told her to let go and really cry, she hates doing that but i felt she needed to do that since she really hasent in awhile. Even though i told her to do so it still hurt my heart hearing her cry and tell me "im fed up.....this is supposed to be easy, its not supposed to be like this!" which broke my heart even more, i was able to hold back from crying while i was on the phone but im not able to now! and i just wish i could go over there right now and just hold her really tightly, it hurts not to be able to do that. She told me im the only one keeping her sane and from doing anything stupid. Horrible part is i can sense that the ultimate fight is gonna happen with her and her parents soon and theres not much i can do about it, and that frusterates me even more because i wanna be there for her in person, and its really hard waiting for December. I know sleep would do her some good right about now, but she's not herself and hasent been for the past few days and its scaring me, i know i'll be able to see her in a month and half but i wish i was there right now!!!
today while she was at the library she told me she had dark circles under her eyes and she's lost more weight due to the stress lately(thats how her body reacts under stress, she loses weight) and even her roomate has noticed and has told her she looks like hell, she hasent slept too well in the last few days and im hoping she'll be able to tonight, and i new her body needed to de stress so i told her to let go and really cry, she hates doing that but i felt she needed to do that since she really hasent in awhile. Even though i told her to do so it still hurt my heart hearing her cry and tell me "im fed up.....this is supposed to be easy, its not supposed to be like this!" which broke my heart even more, i was able to hold back from crying while i was on the phone but im not able to now! and i just wish i could go over there right now and just hold her really tightly, it hurts not to be able to do that. She told me im the only one keeping her sane and from doing anything stupid. Horrible part is i can sense that the ultimate fight is gonna happen with her and her parents soon and theres not much i can do about it, and that frusterates me even more because i wanna be there for her in person, and its really hard waiting for December. I know sleep would do her some good right about now, but she's not herself and hasent been for the past few days and its scaring me, i know i'll be able to see her in a month and half but i wish i was there right now!!!
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