Watching the flight status.

[5000miles]

Our trip is over. We said goodbye approximately 2 hours and 25 minutes ago. I'm watching his flight status as he gets farther and farther away from me. Meeting him and being with him was amazing. I love him more than ever. We shared so much. We still don't know when we'll see each other again. This is impossible. Everything was so amazing when we were together. We fit together. We shouldn't be apart. I don't know how to deal with this.

[Čternity]

I'm so sorry. *hugs* It's natural to be sad and lost, especially without another visit date. I understand. I just went through it myself. Let yourself grieve for awhile but try to be around family and friends. I'm sure he will be in touch as soon as he can and you can settle back to a routine very soon. Look after yourself and express your feelings.

[jerseygirl904]

((Hugs))
I know that feeling all-too-well...I'm sure that many of us here do. I miss my SO the second he walks away from me at the airport. If it's reversed, I normally do not make it though security before I get the "I miss you already" text. I'm not certain when I'm seeing my honey again either...which I hate. It should be sometime next month, but it's not a definite right now. Hang in there...

[Michelle]

There have been times where I have felt the same, when I did not know when I would be able to see Frank again, especially when we were in school. I would feel so gut-wrenchingly empty inside and could just lie in bed and cry and feel like someone ripped a part of me away. But trust me, though it can be really hard and feel hopeless immediately after your boyfriend leaves, you'll go back to your normal every day life, and continue on just as you did before he came for his visit.

You know you have found someone special when they can make you feel this way when they are gone.

[paulawriteslove]

*hugs* I know how you're feeling. Try to think of the good times that both of you had I hope that you took some pictures to share! Try to stay positive hun.

[garnet]

I'm so sorry. I could never watch the flight status when Rane went back, it was too hard. The way I got through these awful times were to just let myself be a crying zombie for a few days. I needed to be sad, and pretending otherwise really didn't help me. Soon enough, I'd get used to things again.
I am sure you have a ton of new memories, and those are always awfully nice to sit back and relive.
Hugs!

[michy]

I'm so glad it went as well as (even better than!!) you imagined. I know firsthand that there's no feeling in the WORLD like being with your guy, and feeling that energy between you two in real life. And honestly, it will be even harder to be apart, now that you know how perfect "together" feels and what you're missing when he's not around.

I am pretty much destroyed the first week after a visit... it's never just him that leaves on that plane, it feels like most of what is inside me is ripped out and taken away as well. Those first few days, I feel like it will definitely never be okay again, my world is turned upside down without him. But... I hang in there, I hold on, and somehow, it DOES heal. I settle back into the distance routine by the 3rd week or so.
We always talk/make efforts to contact each other a LOT more the first few days/weeks back. We normally talk once, maybe twice a week sometimes, but after a visit we need to feel as close to one another as possible, and we slip contact and emails and mini-Skypes into any available cracks in our day. We make whatever extra effort we can to be there & support one another. We both hurt, and for me it's very similar to the grieving process of "losing" a loved one.

Also... after we had our first long visit as a couple, and I KNEW I had to share my life with this man... I had to start working on an official close-the-distance plan. Even though the end of the distance would still be year(s) away, I had to have at least a rough outline, something I could look at and say, "This is how we're going to be together". I might have gone crazy without it, I needed a semi-formed plan, an actual goal I could keep in my sights. I have that list, and each time we reach some landmark or accomplish something that takes us one tiny step closer to being together, I can put a check by it with great satisfaction. And it feels like I'm one step closer to being with him. I'm not sure of your situation or if it's feasible for you to make a plan of some sort, but if so, that is one thing that helped me stay sane while being so far away

Main thing is... hang in there. The next week or so will likely be the worst, but it WILL get better. Try to be glad that you have found what you found in him, even if you can't have it nearly as much as you should I'm so glad you guys had a great time, that's awesome!!!!!

[Karringtyn]

We are all here. I encourage you to talk about it, share your memories so you can look back and relive them over and over. Hang in there... xox

[5000miles]

Thanks for your support everyone. I'm just finishing unpacking. I've been putting it off because I didn't want to face it, but I'm too OCD to sleep before I do it. It's tough. The most insignificant things hold so much memory and emotion right now. An "I love you" note scribbled on a hotel note pad. The shirt I wore the day we met. The pj's I packed that got about 10 minutes of use His shower gel that he didn't want to repack. It's only been since this morning that I smelled it while we showered, but the memories that came with the scent were so vivid. I was doing okay a little earlier, but the closer I get to getting into bed alone the worse I get. I feel hopeless and lost and so so so lonely.

And by the way I posted a few pictures.

[amandamayaaa]

well first of all i'm glad you had a great time with him! but i know exactly what you mean.. it's extremely hard to say goodbye after just saying hello. the only advice to really give you is to just keep your head up, keep yourself busy don't just lay around being sad.. believe me i've done that.. not a good idea. your so lucky to have a guy in your life even if he is 5000 miles away, many people would still kill for that. everything will be alright.. i promise

[Yorkshire Girl]

It sucks the day you say goodbye, the week that follows is just as hard. But time is a healer. Hang in there and Im sending love to you =)

[Silviar]

*hugs* Oh hun, I feel you. Let yourself be sad, but give yourself a chance to go back to your life. This time, you've got htis time to hold on to and remember when things get rough.

Oh, and if I can, start talking about when you plan to get together next/buy the ticket ASAP.

[PaperbackWriter]

Aw No advice, just *hugs*

[agentholli]

I do want to say that I am glad it went so well I don't know this feeling yet, but I can only imagine the pain you feel. You will get into your routine again soon and it will get easier.