No, I don't mean a break as in we stop dating and see other people. This is really difficult to explain since I don't fully understand why I considered this tonight but hopefully you all will get what I'm trying to say.
Things have been going well between me and my SO first off, this isn't based after some huge fight or anything where we both need some alone time or anything. It's an odd feeling but I think with Christmas approaching it's made my missing of him even worse which is what I think brought this all on. He doesn't ignore me, we chat almost every day so I know I have absolutely nothing to complain about and I shouldn't be even considering this 'break' considering how fortunate I know I am with how much we get to talk. But the issue is, it still doesn't feel like enough. I don't know what's wrong with me lately but it's like I want him to literally be with me 24/7 which is ridiculous even for CD couples. I get jealous when I know he's talking to his friends online but given how much he talks to me I know it would be unfair of me to ask him for some specific time only for us.
My issue here is that I already know I have a very dependant personality, it's not a good thing but I've accepted this about myself. But lately I feel as though it's starting to rise into a problem with just how much of his attention I want. Even when he tells me he loves me or says something sweet I always want more or I won't fully believe him until he repeats it a few times. I know that since I'm aware of this problem it should be so easy to just tell myself to knock it off and stop bugging him so much, but really...it's not that easy. And as much as I do NOT want to be away from him I wonder if forcing myself a couple weeks not talking with him would be a good idea before I start to smother him entirely.
I really don't know what to do. Thinking of not talking to him for so long on purpose ( and I apologize if I come off as offensive since I know there are couples who have dealt and have to wait much longer than a couple weeks ) honestly breaks my heart and I don't want to do AT ALL, but I wonder if it's one of those things I HAVE to do before I risk becoming obnoxiousy clingy and exhausting to him. Please, any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Things have been going well between me and my SO first off, this isn't based after some huge fight or anything where we both need some alone time or anything. It's an odd feeling but I think with Christmas approaching it's made my missing of him even worse which is what I think brought this all on. He doesn't ignore me, we chat almost every day so I know I have absolutely nothing to complain about and I shouldn't be even considering this 'break' considering how fortunate I know I am with how much we get to talk. But the issue is, it still doesn't feel like enough. I don't know what's wrong with me lately but it's like I want him to literally be with me 24/7 which is ridiculous even for CD couples. I get jealous when I know he's talking to his friends online but given how much he talks to me I know it would be unfair of me to ask him for some specific time only for us.
My issue here is that I already know I have a very dependant personality, it's not a good thing but I've accepted this about myself. But lately I feel as though it's starting to rise into a problem with just how much of his attention I want. Even when he tells me he loves me or says something sweet I always want more or I won't fully believe him until he repeats it a few times. I know that since I'm aware of this problem it should be so easy to just tell myself to knock it off and stop bugging him so much, but really...it's not that easy. And as much as I do NOT want to be away from him I wonder if forcing myself a couple weeks not talking with him would be a good idea before I start to smother him entirely.
I really don't know what to do. Thinking of not talking to him for so long on purpose ( and I apologize if I come off as offensive since I know there are couples who have dealt and have to wait much longer than a couple weeks ) honestly breaks my heart and I don't want to do AT ALL, but I wonder if it's one of those things I HAVE to do before I risk becoming obnoxiousy clingy and exhausting to him. Please, any advice would be greatly appreciated.
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