I guess this is more of a vent.
I just got back from a trip to see the SO. It was incredible. We don't Everything just feels so right when we're together, it feels very natural to be with him. We always fall into a routine very easy and become accustomed to having one another around. It's never for more than a week or two though and we're back to 740 miles between us, relying on phone calls and texts.
I'm just so tired of the distance. I don't regret any of my decisions. I'd do it a hundred times over. I'd rather spend the rest of my life in an LDR only being physically with him a small fraction of the time than not be with him at all. But I'm so sick of the distance. I'm ready to be together.
Like together together. When I was with him it just felt right, like it's where I was suppose to be. I loved cooking for him and cleaning for him, I loved baking with him, and having every meal together, falling asleep with him in my arms, waking up next to him. I just loved it all. I'm ready to do it day after day after day after day.....
I'm just tired of being alone. I'm tired of doing it without him here. March 13 starts our year countdown, it's so close, we're almost done with the long distance. But still so far....Idk. I'm just so tired of this distance. I'm ready to be with him. Then I worry that we won't be able to be together right away. I graduated Dec 2010, but I have to find a job right away. He won't be out of the Army and home until March. (that's if no deployment or craziness happens) I'll be teaching so I can't just leave and move with him. Idk.
I think I just have more stuff with school and work etc and I'm on the verge of feeling VERY overwhelmed so the distance gets under my skin a bit more.
I just got back from a trip to see the SO. It was incredible. We don't Everything just feels so right when we're together, it feels very natural to be with him. We always fall into a routine very easy and become accustomed to having one another around. It's never for more than a week or two though and we're back to 740 miles between us, relying on phone calls and texts.
I'm just so tired of the distance. I don't regret any of my decisions. I'd do it a hundred times over. I'd rather spend the rest of my life in an LDR only being physically with him a small fraction of the time than not be with him at all. But I'm so sick of the distance. I'm ready to be together.
Like together together. When I was with him it just felt right, like it's where I was suppose to be. I loved cooking for him and cleaning for him, I loved baking with him, and having every meal together, falling asleep with him in my arms, waking up next to him. I just loved it all. I'm ready to do it day after day after day after day.....
I'm just tired of being alone. I'm tired of doing it without him here. March 13 starts our year countdown, it's so close, we're almost done with the long distance. But still so far....Idk. I'm just so tired of this distance. I'm ready to be with him. Then I worry that we won't be able to be together right away. I graduated Dec 2010, but I have to find a job right away. He won't be out of the Army and home until March. (that's if no deployment or craziness happens) I'll be teaching so I can't just leave and move with him. Idk.
I think I just have more stuff with school and work etc and I'm on the verge of feeling VERY overwhelmed so the distance gets under my skin a bit more.
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