Just sick of this!

[sagittariusgirl89]

I am starting to think something is SERIOUSLY wrong with my brain! John came over yesterday morning at 8am and he left at 2pm this afternoon. I won't see him until the 31st.

Im so down right now. I feel like Im so lost. I wanna spend more time with John and I cant. Im so sad. I keep crying.

I think of all we did yesterday and just wish I could do more with him right now. I think as if we broke up and we didn't.

John doesn't act this way. He says I need to go on and just get through it. But, I can't really get my mind off it.

Whenever I do hang out with a friend I still think of John in some way.

Im dreading Christmas because he won't be here this year and my sister may come around, and we don't get along at all...im so sad guys miserable...

[kymckenna]

Been there, It was pretty much depression. It hurt to even be in my own house because he was there last and every time I moved I thought of what we did.. like 'oh we slept on that couch' or something. Only thing I can really tell you is to not let your mind convince you of anything. "Don't out-smart your common sense" is a line in a favorite song of mine, remember to have confidence in your relationship and don't think negative because it makes you think problems are there that aren't and it starts the problems.

I hope this helps and feel better. Ice cream and chocolate is my favorite depression food. Might help to have a date with ben & jerry.

[stacyrose]

I feel your pain ='[

The last time I saw David was Oct 30th, and that whole day I was a miserable wreck on the verge of tears. Two hours straight basically up until the time of my flight I was not only crying, but sobbing. I couldn't get myself to stop even though he was right there with me. I still get a knot in my stomach and chest when I think about how much I truly miss him.

If you really need to, just be miserable on your own for a while. Cry, watch a sad movie, let all the emotions out. It's better to get them out instead of keeping them all inside for the sake of appearance. Just try and focus on the positives about your relationship, and keep your mind busy with hobbies and tasks that require alot of concentration, I find that it helps, at least for me.

[sagittariusgirl89]

Thank you guys. This is so hard! I have never been so emotional about him being home. I hope I will feel better tomorrow. It is hard to even go into my room cuz he was in there sleeping last night...ugh.

[stacyrose]

I know how you feel. The first visit he made for me he actually spent in my house, he slept on the couch. Every morning when I got up I would walk down and see him...once he left I couldn't hardly stand being in the living room. Not to mention my own room since he snuck in there one day and we "ahem"...had a bit of fun.

[sagittariusgirl89]

Haha! John and I have been doing the distance for a little over a year, you think I would be used to this. I mean I see him every 2 weeks...but nope its still hard.

[KiwiLove]

I know I look probably very different at this situation because I have seen my SO the last time at the 28th of March and wont see him until...I dont know.
But hey, you are going to see him at the 31st!!!! :-) Look forward to this date! Its not that bad I think. I would be so extremly happy to know he was there with me yesterday and i am going to see him AGAIN at the 31st.
Try to look at it in this way and think about what you two will do when hes back. Make a plan ;-)

[Silviar]

Ah yes, post visit blues. I feel you SO much honey, seriously. My SO left a week ago, and I'm still kind of numb. Let yourself be sad, let yourself wallow a bit, then pick up the pieces and you have to let yourself release. Some sadness is ok, thinking you've broken up is another. I would suggest developing a little spoil yourself ritual that lets you celebrate yourself as a happy individual rather than focusing on him leaving since you have somewhat frequent trips.

[sagittariusgirl89]

Thank you. I think its hard for me especially this time because last year we spend christmas together and we wont be able to this year. My family is going through some stuff so it will be a little sad this year. I really wanna shake this feeling off but I really can't.