A month on an emotional roller coaster

[kristin]

Thanks

[Snowy.Winter]

Have you thought about therapy? Your problem doesn't seem like one that can be fixed with just
a nice cup of tea and a bun unfortunately, you should look online at local therapists in your area.

And for explaining how you feel to your SO, have you thought of writing him a letter explaining everything?
I usually finding writing a letter makes explaining everything so much easier.

Good luck

[LadyMarchHare]

I'm no doctor but that sounds a lot like bipolar disorder. It may not be and may be something else, but I do agree with Snowy that therapy is in order and they may recommend a psychiatrist to get some sort of medication to help.

Letters are a very good way to get things organized enough to make sense of what you're trying to say because you can edit them. I know none of us ever want to upset our SOs but he's most likely just worried about you as he doesn't understand what's going on and feels helpless from both distance and ignorance as to what the problem is.

[agentholli]

I am also no therapist but it sounds like bi polar disorder to me also. I also say to speak with a doctor. Good luck!

[Silviar]

I would highly suggest getting a medical evaluation - it sounds to me like you may have something more serious ongoing, like depression or bipolar. Please take care of yourself and see your physician; they can help.

[AmandaZamar]

This sounds a lot like me. Its not Bi Polar (I am a nurse also), This sounds more like depression You have a lot of hurting going on things that are bottled inside that you need to let out, I would suggest therapy and journalizing, If you have spiritual beliefs I suggest tapping into that side as well, Your LDR sounds 75% of mine, I had a lot of pain I was going through and taking it out on my SO (Wrong thing I did) He was always there for me and supportive and I too delt with the "Why me?". I tell you this with love and support he loves you for you despite the things you may be feeling inside.

Try your hardest to control how you treat your SO before it is too late, I would highly advise talking to him calmly also and explaining how much you love him and how much you APPRECIATE him, there is nothing more that your SO wants to know then you appreciating him being here for you and that you want to and will be here for him but you need to work on yourself. Whatever you do communicate with him and get some help for yourself (God, Journal, Therapy) there is more going on that may be lingering. Insecurities and Fear. I suggest speaking to your doctor as well for a evaluation

If you need someone to talk to let me know. I will keep you in prayer but don't give up Its never to late to fix it.