After 12 awesome days with Kevin here with me, this morning he leaves. I cried so much last night I'm not sure I have a tear left to cry. He reassured me worse case scenario meant we were apart for 3 more months before we can re-close the distance. 3 Months to a sick, pregnant hormonal woman?! 3 Months from now? 6-7 months pregnant? UGH! I felt as if he was abandoning me. As if it was his choice to just up and leave me. I know in my brain better than that, but my heart? Broken beyond anything I'd ever felt before.
There is an upside to this. I decided at 1:30am that I would wake at 8:00 am with him, and go to Virginia with him for as long as I could, before my next appointment with my OBGYN. What's this mean? It -COULD- give me a month extra with him, but it will at least give me two more weeks. I feel that if I don't go now, I'll be so ridden with appointments that I won't be able to go anywhere later. So here I go? Wish me luck!
There is an upside to this. I decided at 1:30am that I would wake at 8:00 am with him, and go to Virginia with him for as long as I could, before my next appointment with my OBGYN. What's this mean? It -COULD- give me a month extra with him, but it will at least give me two more weeks. I feel that if I don't go now, I'll be so ridden with appointments that I won't be able to go anywhere later. So here I go? Wish me luck!
I was soooo hoping you were on your way. I would rather your health be absolutely for sure okay first, of course (!) but I know how much you wanted to go back with him, and that just sucks!
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