I've talked with my SO on serveral occasion about my worries with him. Its not that i don't trust him.. Its that i don't think he understands.
I'm 20 and I have two kids from a pervious relationship, and one of them has autism. It's not easy.. not in the least. Dealing with my son is hard, the appointments, everything is harder to do with a mentally disabled child. My SO is 25 and I think he would make a wonderful dad!! but i don't think he understands how hard it is.. I don't want him to close the gap and then regret it because he didn't know what he was getting into and then end up stuck. he keeps saying he knows its a big responsibility.. but i wonder if he really understands.
I'll admit i also have a bit of guilt about getting anyone else in the middle of the choas. espcially someone i love.. but there's more
I can't have anymore kids. I know he always wanted one of his own and i can't give him that. another thing he says is fine and he'll stand by me no matter what... but i can't help being worried that 10 years down the line he'll change his mind and regret not having any of his own.
I don't want him to lost out on things in life, nor do i want him resenting me one day. I love him and i want him to be as happy as possible.. i just worry I'm not the right person to make that happen for him.
I don't know what to do...
I'm 20 and I have two kids from a pervious relationship, and one of them has autism. It's not easy.. not in the least. Dealing with my son is hard, the appointments, everything is harder to do with a mentally disabled child. My SO is 25 and I think he would make a wonderful dad!! but i don't think he understands how hard it is.. I don't want him to close the gap and then regret it because he didn't know what he was getting into and then end up stuck. he keeps saying he knows its a big responsibility.. but i wonder if he really understands.
I'll admit i also have a bit of guilt about getting anyone else in the middle of the choas. espcially someone i love.. but there's more
I can't have anymore kids. I know he always wanted one of his own and i can't give him that. another thing he says is fine and he'll stand by me no matter what... but i can't help being worried that 10 years down the line he'll change his mind and regret not having any of his own.
I don't want him to lost out on things in life, nor do i want him resenting me one day. I love him and i want him to be as happy as possible.. i just worry I'm not the right person to make that happen for him.
I don't know what to do...
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