Double-edged sword

[LadyEcstsasy]

Just got back from my trip out to see my SO the other day (and crashed lol) I had a great time and it was over too fast as always. Quickest week of my life lol.

I was just blogging about my stay there when something occured to me. I love being with M and visiting him, but when we're together for an extended period of time while he's at the college apartment, I've begun to notice that when I go home a teeny-tiny part of me is actually relieved...which kind of makes me feel guilty.

I'm a pretty territorial person when it comes to my space. I grew up in a house with two older brothers so it was important to me to have my space and my privacy. When I stay with my SO, he's sharing his rather small room with me. It starts getting to me after a week or so that I don't have much privacy - especially if I'm going to be writing. I like writing with company, but at the same time I need space and no distractions to really be productive. I felt bad kicking him to the other side of the bed because I was paranoid he'd see what I was writing.

Sorry this has gotten long. Was just wondering if anyone else has these mixed feelings when visiting their SO.

[LadyMarchHare]

I know how you feel. I had a friend who would, every few months, spend some days with me and though we got along great and were pretty much similar, her presence disrupted the flow of my life and I wasn't ever alone. Even going away to spend time somewhere I got homesick to a degree.

I think it's natural in a way to be relieved that you're home, because again it's your space and your time and you're so used to that life that being out of it for x amount of days is a bit disarming. And I think with visits we try cramming so much face time with our SOs that we give up the right to privacy just to make up for lost time.