i met my boyfriend, ayden, about two years ago in the summer of 09, on facebook. our friend wanted me to add him on there, so i did. later, he told me he was gonna reject it, but his friend added me instead. i feel so lucky.. oh and he lives in Utah, and i live in Georgia so its about 3,000+ miles away. but after talking on the phone and skype, he started to become my best friend. it was strange, but very true. he helped me alot with my family problems and such, which no one has before. not even my closest real friends. and on May 11, 2010, i finally told him i love him more than anyone. he told me he loves me also. i was so happy! so we continued to be in a long-distance relationship, and he was okay with it, as was i. we made plans with the help of my dad to meet eachother during the next summers (we would be 15, 16, and 17) and secretly, we planned to live together in Utah and go to college there when were 18.
things were going really well, until November 2010, when his freak mom (shes mormon and all, so she didnt like us talking because im not mormon and apparently i "kept him from hanging out with his friends, and took up to much time") decided to put up a limit to how long we could talk during the day. she blocked me from his phone until 10 at night to 12:15, school days, and from 12 to 4 on weekends. so i got to talk to him only 2 hours a day! this lasted a few months, and it really made us get closer. we gradually got used to it, and were okay with it.
but for some reason, one night in January 2011, he didnt text me at 10. i got kinda worried, but figured his stepdad had just forgotten to unblock me. but i looked on facebook and realized i wasnt his friend on there and i was blocked. i started to put two-and-two together, but thought i was overreacting a little. but just in case, i sent him a message on there.. later, he became my friend on facebook again. but at 12 that night, he called me. he told me for some reason his mom didnt want us to talk anymore, so she was going to permanently block me so we wouldnt be able to talk, and deleted all the people we were both friends with on facebook, so we couldnt talk through them, and forbid him from using facebook, even at his dads house. i swear, i couldve died.. i was so scared that i wouldnt be with him anymore and hed stop loving me. we got 15 minutes to talk for the last time. that was the shortest 15 minutes of my life. he told me not to worry. that once he could get a job and help pay for his phone, he would ask to unblock me. he also told me to wait for him and that he WILL get an apartment when were 18, and he WILL contact me through phone or facebook, so that we can be together then. and ill never forget the last thing he said to me.. he said "i love you. dont do anything stupid". he actually managed to make me laugh a little bit.. i realized then that i was going to miss him more than anything, and that no one could take his place.
its been 5 months since then, and im still missing him and crying at night sometimes, when i think that i should be talking to him instead of just thinking of him. so i dont know what to do.. its only four years until were 18 and out of highschool. were starting 9th grade this fall, and im so scared for it. i hate thinking of him getting a real girlfriend and forgetting about me. ill never forget him though. and he told me and swore to me that ill always be the best person in the world and that he'll always love me and that no other girl will ever interest him.. but hes a guy. how can i really believe that he wont ever want a girlfriend while hes in highschool?
idk what to do. should i wait? i want to, but its hard.. should i? will it be worth it? i do love him so much..
things were going really well, until November 2010, when his freak mom (shes mormon and all, so she didnt like us talking because im not mormon and apparently i "kept him from hanging out with his friends, and took up to much time") decided to put up a limit to how long we could talk during the day. she blocked me from his phone until 10 at night to 12:15, school days, and from 12 to 4 on weekends. so i got to talk to him only 2 hours a day! this lasted a few months, and it really made us get closer. we gradually got used to it, and were okay with it.
but for some reason, one night in January 2011, he didnt text me at 10. i got kinda worried, but figured his stepdad had just forgotten to unblock me. but i looked on facebook and realized i wasnt his friend on there and i was blocked. i started to put two-and-two together, but thought i was overreacting a little. but just in case, i sent him a message on there.. later, he became my friend on facebook again. but at 12 that night, he called me. he told me for some reason his mom didnt want us to talk anymore, so she was going to permanently block me so we wouldnt be able to talk, and deleted all the people we were both friends with on facebook, so we couldnt talk through them, and forbid him from using facebook, even at his dads house. i swear, i couldve died.. i was so scared that i wouldnt be with him anymore and hed stop loving me. we got 15 minutes to talk for the last time. that was the shortest 15 minutes of my life. he told me not to worry. that once he could get a job and help pay for his phone, he would ask to unblock me. he also told me to wait for him and that he WILL get an apartment when were 18, and he WILL contact me through phone or facebook, so that we can be together then. and ill never forget the last thing he said to me.. he said "i love you. dont do anything stupid". he actually managed to make me laugh a little bit.. i realized then that i was going to miss him more than anything, and that no one could take his place.
its been 5 months since then, and im still missing him and crying at night sometimes, when i think that i should be talking to him instead of just thinking of him. so i dont know what to do.. its only four years until were 18 and out of highschool. were starting 9th grade this fall, and im so scared for it. i hate thinking of him getting a real girlfriend and forgetting about me. ill never forget him though. and he told me and swore to me that ill always be the best person in the world and that he'll always love me and that no other girl will ever interest him.. but hes a guy. how can i really believe that he wont ever want a girlfriend while hes in highschool?
idk what to do. should i wait? i want to, but its hard.. should i? will it be worth it? i do love him so much..
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