Although this has been asked multiple times before, I wanted to post my own situation because its driving me insane already...and its only been two days.
Background: My SO at times acts a lot like my older brother. He's 25, I'm 20, and I guess he feels responsible for me. He's also said that he's basically grown up playing the older brother role to all the friends in his life-he has a younger brother, and a few younger friends. When he has to call an older friend "big brother" or "big sister" he feels awkward, since its something so different for him. He's also not talkative about his feelings or problems-but then again, which man IS? Usually I've been good at picking up his body language signals for when he's unhappy, and responding to those. Usually.
Lately I've been getting busier. What originally started out as a 10 hr a week unpaid internship suddenly turned into 25-30 hrs a week, paid, as my cheap and irresponsible boss wanted an easy way for someone to help him with his being audited by the IRS. Not only is it 25-30 hrs a week, it's practically on-call. I don't know which days of the week I work, and I end up calling every morning. Since I haven't had a job over 20 hrs in my life, this has hit me like a ton of bricks since it started and all I've been wanting to do this past week since it did was come home, and listen to/read about kpop and anime(my hobbies online).
Also, since I opened up to him about a big personal issue earlier in the year-how my mom has epilepsy due to a complicated work related injury, but that she forbade me from speaking about it to people outside the family-I've felt very comfortable confiding in him about all my problems. This sometimes results in me being super whiny/bitchy on days when I have a lot of problems and having our talk not involve much of anything else. I've asked repeatedly about what he thinks about it, because I've felt rather bad about burdening just him-and one more best friend with EVERYTHING. He's said more than once that it's no trouble and he likes taking care of me. I've continued to feel guilty, but as it takes me a long time to fully trust someone, only my SO and best girl friend have my undying loyalty/know everything about me. It would be hard for me to talk to someone else, even though I really want to unburden them some.
Yesterday was supposed to be one of our two weekly chat nights. I asked on Sunday whether we were still having it, and he asked that he instead wanted to take time to take a walk by himself. I immediately felt guilty, because according to personal judgement I haven't been doing a good job of giving him full attention since about the time this bookkeeping started. I told him this, and he responded with "Its not about you! Dont think too much!". It could naturally be just that, but given my situation I also get the suspicion that perhaps I finally pissed him off too much...though HOW, I have no clue.
He's always been super, super good to me and treated me like his little princess(just last week he showed me this GIANT Pooh bear he bought me, and waved its paws at me cutely through the webcam(, even as he joked about how bad it was to be a princess type. But he's not very good at talking about these things...
So back to the situation at hand. He wanted time alone on Monday, so I didn't contact him since Sunday to now. Should I contact him? We kind of stopped on a bad note Sunday with his message being a bit snippy, I replied "sorry!", and he has yet...to reply...I think I just want a reason for these things...
Background: My SO at times acts a lot like my older brother. He's 25, I'm 20, and I guess he feels responsible for me. He's also said that he's basically grown up playing the older brother role to all the friends in his life-he has a younger brother, and a few younger friends. When he has to call an older friend "big brother" or "big sister" he feels awkward, since its something so different for him. He's also not talkative about his feelings or problems-but then again, which man IS? Usually I've been good at picking up his body language signals for when he's unhappy, and responding to those. Usually.
Lately I've been getting busier. What originally started out as a 10 hr a week unpaid internship suddenly turned into 25-30 hrs a week, paid, as my cheap and irresponsible boss wanted an easy way for someone to help him with his being audited by the IRS. Not only is it 25-30 hrs a week, it's practically on-call. I don't know which days of the week I work, and I end up calling every morning. Since I haven't had a job over 20 hrs in my life, this has hit me like a ton of bricks since it started and all I've been wanting to do this past week since it did was come home, and listen to/read about kpop and anime(my hobbies online).
Also, since I opened up to him about a big personal issue earlier in the year-how my mom has epilepsy due to a complicated work related injury, but that she forbade me from speaking about it to people outside the family-I've felt very comfortable confiding in him about all my problems. This sometimes results in me being super whiny/bitchy on days when I have a lot of problems and having our talk not involve much of anything else. I've asked repeatedly about what he thinks about it, because I've felt rather bad about burdening just him-and one more best friend with EVERYTHING. He's said more than once that it's no trouble and he likes taking care of me. I've continued to feel guilty, but as it takes me a long time to fully trust someone, only my SO and best girl friend have my undying loyalty/know everything about me. It would be hard for me to talk to someone else, even though I really want to unburden them some.
Yesterday was supposed to be one of our two weekly chat nights. I asked on Sunday whether we were still having it, and he asked that he instead wanted to take time to take a walk by himself. I immediately felt guilty, because according to personal judgement I haven't been doing a good job of giving him full attention since about the time this bookkeeping started. I told him this, and he responded with "Its not about you! Dont think too much!". It could naturally be just that, but given my situation I also get the suspicion that perhaps I finally pissed him off too much...though HOW, I have no clue.
He's always been super, super good to me and treated me like his little princess(just last week he showed me this GIANT Pooh bear he bought me, and waved its paws at me cutely through the webcam(, even as he joked about how bad it was to be a princess type. But he's not very good at talking about these things...
So back to the situation at hand. He wanted time alone on Monday, so I didn't contact him since Sunday to now. Should I contact him? We kind of stopped on a bad note Sunday with his message being a bit snippy, I replied "sorry!", and he has yet...to reply...I think I just want a reason for these things...
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