More about me, to selene
as of 11/16/2024 as i write this, i am going through hardships that make me feel hatred towards myself, although i still write you poems everyday, i just cant get you out of my mind, its killing me, i hurt you and made you worry, and i dont know how to cope with it, i usually stick to just giving you space but i want to pour my heart out and just get comforted by you, you're the only thing keeping me sane these days, with moving to a new house with nobody but myself, it gets hard for me to stay sane enough to not destroy my body for 9 hours a day, i work mindlessly thinking about you so when i finally come to my senses i cant even pick up my bag that my muscles are so sore, it feels nice, but i know you hate when i push myself like that, working out and construction are the only things that are keeping me occupied
my favorite things to do are baking, drifting, poetry, producing songs, forex trading, working out, training (boxing) and programming
my favorite color is pink.
pink became my favorite color when i had to wear pink shirts to support Breast Cancer Awareness, since my grandma died from it, i always wore the shirt to events to show awareness for women suffering from it.
my favorite foods are Waigyu steak (NYC steak is my favorite aswell because me and my mom always used to eat it together), plain rice (with eggs)(optional), oatmeal, literally any cold meat (ham/balogna), tuna (with mayo + bread + salt)(optional)
Most of these are food that my mom and dad liked to eat with me while growing up, although i'm not picky, i enjoy these just because i used to enjoy them with my parents, oatmeal, plain rice, and eggs, are all apart of my diet, and food that me and my dad used to eat since he used to be a football player and a boxer, and the tuna with mayo, bread, and salt, AND cold meats, are what me and my dad used to eat when it was lunch, since he used to work construction, me and my dad would have lunch together whenever he had break, so we would sit on a beam or in the back of my moms van, make a tuna salt mayo bread sandwhich, or a normal ham sandwhich and eat together, he always looked happy while working, i miss the look he'd give me as he walked over and made us sandwhiches, i might have everything that money can buy, but i can never be my dad
my favorite songs can't even be named on here due to me having a favorite song from almost every genre. but i'll attempt it.
Crystal Castles - Suffocation
Sillage - Love
Snow Strippers - Under Your Spell (Favorite song in my gym playlist)
Grimes - Genesis
Sidewalks And Skeletons - Goth
So i was taking a walk the other day x Pride Kendrick Lamar (not an actual song so i linked it here)
Those are the only songs i can find right now that i havent shown you yet
my favorite roblox game is called "An obby for top obbyists" or "Jukes Towers Of Hell (JTOH)" and only because they take hours to beat, i love challenging games
(obby's are like the roblox version of parkour)
my favorite personality of yours selene, is the one where you show your obsession with me, the one where you stalk me, my location, even the news of the city im in, the one where you dont give up no matter how stubborn i am, no girl has ever gotten past the stages where i show how stubborn i can be, thats why ive never made it past the talking stage when it comes to relationships, that all changed when i met you, i'm slowly putting my ego down for you because i want to accept you into my soul, i want to spend the rest of my days with you and show you the beautiful things that are over this stubborn wall that keeps us apart.
my favorite pizza topping is pepperoni,
i like my things basic when it comes to toppings.
but not when it comes to seasonings.
olives on my pizza is something ive never liked but never disliked.
same with mushrooms.
although i loved the fried mushrooms my mom and dad used to make for me, but on a pizza, i just cant.
plain cheese pizza is good aswell, i enjoy the simplicity.
sausage on pizza is also something i love.
pepperoni and sausage pizza, my favorite combo.
but the meat lovers (Sausage, Pepperoni and Sausage) pizza is a bit much, as i stated before, i love ham sandwhiches, but i like simple things, im a simple man, so the ham mixed with the other two toppings, idk, seems a bit excessive in my opinion.
my favorite baby picture is a picture of me and my little sister with our dad, we are irish twins so we are very close, my mom has the picture since i moved out on short notice
the reason i like pizza is because i grew up on it, since my family was poor while growing up.
growing up with simple things like hamburger helper and salt with water and bread, thats the reason i dont complain, thats the reason why i'm simple.
why complain when its all i had? my dad worked his ass off yet barely made enough, i don't want my children to go through that, thats why im so stubborn.
my favorite hobby as a child used to be playing outside at a park we lived by, since my dad was always at work and my mom was always sleeping, never really had anything to do other then ride bikes, play basketball, or play on the playground, i loved riding my back as a child, even tho i crashed multiple times.
my favorite animal is a dog, cat, or axolotl, or a spider, spiders are misunderstood so i feel a connection to them, they fear humans more then anything, so they try to hide, but only to get killed for having 4 extra legs, cats are house animals mostly and always get mistreated for being small and vulnerable, thats how i felt growing up, and with dogs, they were always there for me whenever i felt down and always shared my happiness whenever i was feeling upbeat, so i owe them everything, and axolotl's, they dont have complex feelings like humans do, they look so happy yet feel nothing, its almost like yearning or putting on a mask, i understand animals alot, and im connected to them on a deeper level then most because i took the time to understand them, being misunderstood is the worst feeling ever, i hate that most animals go through that just because they dont talk or cry, such beautiful souls yet get treated like they are beneath humans because their thoughts and feelings arent as complex as humans are.
an animal i've had growing up was a dog named sparky, me and him used to run around my grandma's 40 acre land, he would eat with me, bathe with me, run with me, sleep with me.
he died trying to protect another dog which was a mother of 5, from a pack of 5 cyotes, he killed them all but died due to his injuries and the snow was knee deep, i spent a week digging through the snow to look for him, after i found him, i buried him, he's the reason i spent hundred of thousands funding towards sheltering animals across japan.
now onto my dislikes.
i dislike myself
my goals as i was growing up were to make money and to train, but now that i've met you, those goals have changed significantly, now i want to be a better husband for you, a better person that you can proudly call your own, i want to make you happy, i want you to show the appreciation that you deserve, your beautiful soul deserves more then i can give in a single lifetime, even with hundreds of lifetimes you'd still deserve more.
the places i want to go and the places i've already traveled to, the place i want to go is a place that i can only dream of, a warm place, so close yet so far.
the places i've already traveled to, there are hundreds, i can only name about 40 off the top of my head so i'll come back to this.
my favorite number is called Aleph Null (ℵ0)(More Info Here: Aleph-null) and another one of my favorite numbers is the "Busy Beaver Function" or the "BB(n)"(More Info Here: Busy beaver)
my favorite weather is foggy, gloomy, rainy, or snowy weather, it feels like nothing is real when i experience them, feels like home.
my favorite breakfast food is eggs with bread and salt, rice, sausage with gravy and buscuits, or oatmeal.
my favorite comedy movie is "A Million Ways To Die In The West"
my favorite horror movie is "Nightmare On Elm Street" or "The Conjouring"
my favorite manga is "Berserk"(Dark Fantasy)
my favorite anime is "とらドラ!" ("Toradora!")(Romance) or "ヴィンランド・サガ"(Vinland Saga)(Historical/Adventure) or "Dr. Stone"(Science-Fiction/Post-Apocolyptic)
my favorite K-drama is "King The Land"(Romance) or "Daily Dose Of Sunshine"(Romance/Mental Awareness)
posting so i dont lose this, write more
my favorite things to do are baking, drifting, poetry, producing songs, forex trading, working out, training (boxing) and programming
my favorite color is pink.
pink became my favorite color when i had to wear pink shirts to support Breast Cancer Awareness, since my grandma died from it, i always wore the shirt to events to show awareness for women suffering from it.
my favorite foods are Waigyu steak (NYC steak is my favorite aswell because me and my mom always used to eat it together), plain rice (with eggs)(optional), oatmeal, literally any cold meat (ham/balogna), tuna (with mayo + bread + salt)(optional)
Most of these are food that my mom and dad liked to eat with me while growing up, although i'm not picky, i enjoy these just because i used to enjoy them with my parents, oatmeal, plain rice, and eggs, are all apart of my diet, and food that me and my dad used to eat since he used to be a football player and a boxer, and the tuna with mayo, bread, and salt, AND cold meats, are what me and my dad used to eat when it was lunch, since he used to work construction, me and my dad would have lunch together whenever he had break, so we would sit on a beam or in the back of my moms van, make a tuna salt mayo bread sandwhich, or a normal ham sandwhich and eat together, he always looked happy while working, i miss the look he'd give me as he walked over and made us sandwhiches, i might have everything that money can buy, but i can never be my dad
my favorite songs can't even be named on here due to me having a favorite song from almost every genre. but i'll attempt it.
Crystal Castles - Suffocation
Sillage - Love
Snow Strippers - Under Your Spell (Favorite song in my gym playlist)
Grimes - Genesis
Sidewalks And Skeletons - Goth
So i was taking a walk the other day x Pride Kendrick Lamar (not an actual song so i linked it here)
Those are the only songs i can find right now that i havent shown you yet
my favorite roblox game is called "An obby for top obbyists" or "Jukes Towers Of Hell (JTOH)" and only because they take hours to beat, i love challenging games
(obby's are like the roblox version of parkour)
my favorite personality of yours selene, is the one where you show your obsession with me, the one where you stalk me, my location, even the news of the city im in, the one where you dont give up no matter how stubborn i am, no girl has ever gotten past the stages where i show how stubborn i can be, thats why ive never made it past the talking stage when it comes to relationships, that all changed when i met you, i'm slowly putting my ego down for you because i want to accept you into my soul, i want to spend the rest of my days with you and show you the beautiful things that are over this stubborn wall that keeps us apart.
my favorite pizza topping is pepperoni,
i like my things basic when it comes to toppings.
but not when it comes to seasonings.
olives on my pizza is something ive never liked but never disliked.
same with mushrooms.
although i loved the fried mushrooms my mom and dad used to make for me, but on a pizza, i just cant.
plain cheese pizza is good aswell, i enjoy the simplicity.
sausage on pizza is also something i love.
pepperoni and sausage pizza, my favorite combo.
but the meat lovers (Sausage, Pepperoni and Sausage) pizza is a bit much, as i stated before, i love ham sandwhiches, but i like simple things, im a simple man, so the ham mixed with the other two toppings, idk, seems a bit excessive in my opinion.
my favorite baby picture is a picture of me and my little sister with our dad, we are irish twins so we are very close, my mom has the picture since i moved out on short notice
the reason i like pizza is because i grew up on it, since my family was poor while growing up.
growing up with simple things like hamburger helper and salt with water and bread, thats the reason i dont complain, thats the reason why i'm simple.
why complain when its all i had? my dad worked his ass off yet barely made enough, i don't want my children to go through that, thats why im so stubborn.
my favorite hobby as a child used to be playing outside at a park we lived by, since my dad was always at work and my mom was always sleeping, never really had anything to do other then ride bikes, play basketball, or play on the playground, i loved riding my back as a child, even tho i crashed multiple times.
my favorite animal is a dog, cat, or axolotl, or a spider, spiders are misunderstood so i feel a connection to them, they fear humans more then anything, so they try to hide, but only to get killed for having 4 extra legs, cats are house animals mostly and always get mistreated for being small and vulnerable, thats how i felt growing up, and with dogs, they were always there for me whenever i felt down and always shared my happiness whenever i was feeling upbeat, so i owe them everything, and axolotl's, they dont have complex feelings like humans do, they look so happy yet feel nothing, its almost like yearning or putting on a mask, i understand animals alot, and im connected to them on a deeper level then most because i took the time to understand them, being misunderstood is the worst feeling ever, i hate that most animals go through that just because they dont talk or cry, such beautiful souls yet get treated like they are beneath humans because their thoughts and feelings arent as complex as humans are.
an animal i've had growing up was a dog named sparky, me and him used to run around my grandma's 40 acre land, he would eat with me, bathe with me, run with me, sleep with me.
he died trying to protect another dog which was a mother of 5, from a pack of 5 cyotes, he killed them all but died due to his injuries and the snow was knee deep, i spent a week digging through the snow to look for him, after i found him, i buried him, he's the reason i spent hundred of thousands funding towards sheltering animals across japan.
now onto my dislikes.
i dislike myself
my goals as i was growing up were to make money and to train, but now that i've met you, those goals have changed significantly, now i want to be a better husband for you, a better person that you can proudly call your own, i want to make you happy, i want you to show the appreciation that you deserve, your beautiful soul deserves more then i can give in a single lifetime, even with hundreds of lifetimes you'd still deserve more.
the places i want to go and the places i've already traveled to, the place i want to go is a place that i can only dream of, a warm place, so close yet so far.
the places i've already traveled to, there are hundreds, i can only name about 40 off the top of my head so i'll come back to this.
my favorite number is called Aleph Null (ℵ0)(More Info Here: Aleph-null) and another one of my favorite numbers is the "Busy Beaver Function" or the "BB(n)"(More Info Here: Busy beaver)
my favorite weather is foggy, gloomy, rainy, or snowy weather, it feels like nothing is real when i experience them, feels like home.
my favorite breakfast food is eggs with bread and salt, rice, sausage with gravy and buscuits, or oatmeal.
my favorite comedy movie is "A Million Ways To Die In The West"
my favorite horror movie is "Nightmare On Elm Street" or "The Conjouring"
my favorite manga is "Berserk"(Dark Fantasy)
my favorite anime is "とらドラ!" ("Toradora!")(Romance) or "ヴィンランド・サガ"(Vinland Saga)(Historical/Adventure) or "Dr. Stone"(Science-Fiction/Post-Apocolyptic)
my favorite K-drama is "King The Land"(Romance) or "Daily Dose Of Sunshine"(Romance/Mental Awareness)
posting so i dont lose this, write more