hey Luce.
It's the summer of 2010. You and the kids are getting ready to head to NH for your weeks vacation to spend in the beautiful land of New Hampshire. This is your 7th visit together. It is going to be beautiful. You are going to sob like you wouldn't believe when you leave though. Your heart is going to ache like you have never ever felt as you and the kids drive the 7 hours back home. It will be over 2 months before you see him again. Reach out and grab him one more time and kiss him. Do not look in that rear view mirror when you drive away...because that is the image that will haunt you for months to come. You see him wipe a tear away. That is what tore you up. The days will seem like they will drag. You will feel alone and quite frankly miserable. You will feel out of place and that noone truly does understand. When you get back from NH you will find this place...LFAD and you will realize you aren't alone in this battle, in this situation. You will make some pretty amazing friends....ones that will push you along...remind you to believe...and some that will kick your arse when you need it.
You will doubt Dan. You will question each and every word. You will over analyze and just feel so very defeated much of the time. You will wonder....is it worth it? Can I do this. Can I be alone yet engaged to this man? Then you will ask yourself...what choice to I have? Leave him? Nope not an option.
It won't be easy. You will get off the phone with him sometimes and shake your head. You will ask yourself...did he really just say that? You will wonder why it isn't your turn to close the distance and why can't it just happen. You will say over and over...if you could JUST KNOW when it will stop being a LDR..then you will be ok. That if you just had a date to count down to...then it would make it easier.
My advice Luce? Take each day as a special gift. Do not allow yourelf to get caught up in the drama. Praise God that you have been given such a wonderful man. One that isn't going anywhere...he will prove that. The only place he will be going is to your front door on July 12th, 2011 at 10:30 AM. He will be at that door...arms wide open....and it is then...that you will truly realize...
it was ALL worth it.
Right now girl wipe those tears and embrace the fact that you are loved.
Love,
Me....from the year 2011.
It's the summer of 2010. You and the kids are getting ready to head to NH for your weeks vacation to spend in the beautiful land of New Hampshire. This is your 7th visit together. It is going to be beautiful. You are going to sob like you wouldn't believe when you leave though. Your heart is going to ache like you have never ever felt as you and the kids drive the 7 hours back home. It will be over 2 months before you see him again. Reach out and grab him one more time and kiss him. Do not look in that rear view mirror when you drive away...because that is the image that will haunt you for months to come. You see him wipe a tear away. That is what tore you up. The days will seem like they will drag. You will feel alone and quite frankly miserable. You will feel out of place and that noone truly does understand. When you get back from NH you will find this place...LFAD and you will realize you aren't alone in this battle, in this situation. You will make some pretty amazing friends....ones that will push you along...remind you to believe...and some that will kick your arse when you need it.
You will doubt Dan. You will question each and every word. You will over analyze and just feel so very defeated much of the time. You will wonder....is it worth it? Can I do this. Can I be alone yet engaged to this man? Then you will ask yourself...what choice to I have? Leave him? Nope not an option.
It won't be easy. You will get off the phone with him sometimes and shake your head. You will ask yourself...did he really just say that? You will wonder why it isn't your turn to close the distance and why can't it just happen. You will say over and over...if you could JUST KNOW when it will stop being a LDR..then you will be ok. That if you just had a date to count down to...then it would make it easier.
My advice Luce? Take each day as a special gift. Do not allow yourelf to get caught up in the drama. Praise God that you have been given such a wonderful man. One that isn't going anywhere...he will prove that. The only place he will be going is to your front door on July 12th, 2011 at 10:30 AM. He will be at that door...arms wide open....and it is then...that you will truly realize...
it was ALL worth it.
Right now girl wipe those tears and embrace the fact that you are loved.
Love,
Me....from the year 2011.
Original way of making it as a letter to your past self^^
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