Its been almost two months since everything fell apart and I still have feelings for her even though after all the shit she put me through. I know, I know... by now I shouldn't be worrying about this anymore. But it bugs me so much. I accepted her for her faults yet she couldn't accept me for me. Then on to top of off when she goes to S.Korea she meets some guy who sweet talks her while we are going through a rough situation. Its like she promised she wouldn't cheat and then, well she does... as if to punish me. We had such a good time when we where together in person and that is thanks to me going against my parents to see her, 13000 km away for a total cost of $3400 over 9 days. Yeah and she still breaks up.
I did however, talk to my friends and then her friends about what happened between us and I got a lot of support saying i deserve better. I even forwarded our last two emails to one of her close friends and told her to pas it on to her other close friends so they knew what happened. She after I did that remove me from her friends on facebook... which I later found out was actually blocking me. So now you block your most recent boyfriends; but you always rather to make up with them and move on. I really think in my opinion that she is being manipulated by her 'new' guy, since he is showering her with gifts.
It just bugs me... I want her back, I don't want her...
I want us to be on good terms, I don't want to see her for a long time...
I want to move on or... well, move on.
Its just the last two months my moody has literally up and down. I've got to bed angry and woke up angry only to calm down towards the late afternoon. All of this is still affecting my emotionally. I don't have that much of an appetite in the morning. Ugh, this bugs me emotionally, and making everything since my mind keeps on wandering during the day about trying to move on or trying to calm myself.
Any advice would be appreciated.
I did however, talk to my friends and then her friends about what happened between us and I got a lot of support saying i deserve better. I even forwarded our last two emails to one of her close friends and told her to pas it on to her other close friends so they knew what happened. She after I did that remove me from her friends on facebook... which I later found out was actually blocking me. So now you block your most recent boyfriends; but you always rather to make up with them and move on. I really think in my opinion that she is being manipulated by her 'new' guy, since he is showering her with gifts.
It just bugs me... I want her back, I don't want her...
I want us to be on good terms, I don't want to see her for a long time...
I want to move on or... well, move on.
Its just the last two months my moody has literally up and down. I've got to bed angry and woke up angry only to calm down towards the late afternoon. All of this is still affecting my emotionally. I don't have that much of an appetite in the morning. Ugh, this bugs me emotionally, and making everything since my mind keeps on wandering during the day about trying to move on or trying to calm myself.
Any advice would be appreciated.
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