Today has been a rough day. I'm trying to find a second job so that I can start saving money for plane tickets and/or to help with moving in the future. (Also, I need to start paying student loans.) I applied for a Census job a few weeks ago. When I called today to see if they received my application, they said yes and were impressed that I scored so high on their exam (Wow! You scored a 97, that's really high!), but then they proceeded to tell me they've already hired 1200 people in the last two weeks, but not to get upset I MIGHT get a call in the next couple of weeks. Followed by another disappoint on another job that has trainings coming up this week, but I can't attend because I have NHS induction and UIL to attend at school. Then, I take my two kitties to the vet. They both have worms and ear mites, and Ginsberg needs an antibiotic. I can't afford anything though.
I sit there in the waiting room fighting back the tears, because I can't get them the treatment they need and I feel like a horrible pet-mom. Not only that, but because I talked to my SO about the plane ticket for July that neither of us has the money for yet. I MIGHT be able to buy it in May, but hopefully/definitely by June. We didn't get far in our conversation because he said he couldn't afford it and that's all there was to it. I just felt hopeless, like it was 3 years ago all over again. (I'll explain this soon when I tell our story.)
I log into WoW today to talk to a friend in our guild. I'm telling her about what's happening and how much I miss him and how scared I am that things are going to repeat themselves. I start to cry, but I'm interrupted by a loud knock on the door. It's the UPS guy with a 1800-Flowers box. As soon as I see it I try to hold back the tears, but they start coming anyways. I sign for the box, come inside, set them on the table and start to really cry. I get the note and it says "To the woman I miss and the woman I love. It really saddens me that we keep having to not see each other on happy occasions. These are to insure that today you smile that smile I love. Happy three months!" At this point, I can barely see to open the box. Inside are a dozen red roses and a box of Godiva truffles.
I began crying from despair and fear and found myself crying from pure joy. The flowers arriving could've only been preordained as a sign of Fate that things are going to be fine; that they're going to work somehow, someway. I don't know what else to do but be thankful, smile through the tears, and send up a prayer to the Universe for all the many blessings I've been given.
I sit there in the waiting room fighting back the tears, because I can't get them the treatment they need and I feel like a horrible pet-mom. Not only that, but because I talked to my SO about the plane ticket for July that neither of us has the money for yet. I MIGHT be able to buy it in May, but hopefully/definitely by June. We didn't get far in our conversation because he said he couldn't afford it and that's all there was to it. I just felt hopeless, like it was 3 years ago all over again. (I'll explain this soon when I tell our story.)
I log into WoW today to talk to a friend in our guild. I'm telling her about what's happening and how much I miss him and how scared I am that things are going to repeat themselves. I start to cry, but I'm interrupted by a loud knock on the door. It's the UPS guy with a 1800-Flowers box. As soon as I see it I try to hold back the tears, but they start coming anyways. I sign for the box, come inside, set them on the table and start to really cry. I get the note and it says "To the woman I miss and the woman I love. It really saddens me that we keep having to not see each other on happy occasions. These are to insure that today you smile that smile I love. Happy three months!" At this point, I can barely see to open the box. Inside are a dozen red roses and a box of Godiva truffles.
I began crying from despair and fear and found myself crying from pure joy. The flowers arriving could've only been preordained as a sign of Fate that things are going to be fine; that they're going to work somehow, someway. I don't know what else to do but be thankful, smile through the tears, and send up a prayer to the Universe for all the many blessings I've been given.
That is really cool, and I agree that sometimes things are just meant to happen and it shows itself to us as we need to see it. 
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