what shall I do...?
Ok well this is how started:
well me and my SO met on Myspace(of all places...lol), she actually initiated the first message. Shes 25 and I am 26. At the time I rarely went on there, only time that I did was when I got an email about something. She was interested in my culture(native american). At the time I wasn't looking to get into a relationship neither was she. But we exchanged messages over a month or two, even tho it was about 1-2 messages a month. Which increased very rapidly afterward. Finally we exchanged IMs and started talking weekly if not almost every day, but we weren't looking for a relationship still(or atleast I wasn't, not sure about her), I know I liked talking with her. anyways this went on for about a few months, and we started talking more about our personal lives, as for me I am the kind of person that likes looking into the future and trying to plan that out. We would contact through Yahoo, MSN, Text/sms, and a good night call. That was all great
I started falling for her. We then decided that we will try to be together and wanted to meet each other IRL. We made plans for meeting in January of this year, although that went out the door cause of cost and low money on my side(I am going to her the first time). So we planned another visit for the end of my first semester in school. but then we had issues of communication just after that(she has a daughter that is just in kindergarden), she then said that we should wait until summer. I agreed with that, just meant could save more and stay longer since I would have a couple weeks off from school.
Since about December I had a phone so that could talk with her as much as possible, even when not near a computer myself. but ever since her daughter has been in school, she hasn't messaged me as much as we used to. I do know that she was busy with getting her daughter in school, but that didn't mean the morning/evening texts or calls had to stop or slow down. Also on top of that she had to start working part time during the day. I told her I understood how that would be, just didn't understand why the messages slowed down dramatically all of a sudden(I felt forgotten...).
Lately we have only been talking through offline messages. I understand that she is busy with her daughter and work, its just that I don't understand why the talks have almost halted to one or two texts a day(if that). has been happening over the past month to 2 months.
She actually got mad at me cause I was trying to talk to her about me wanting to talk more often. saying that I don't want to understand her or that I am just putting the blame on her, which I wasn't meaning it to be that way at all. Just wanted to work it out some how.
I know since the lack of communication has hit me hard that I am always thinking of it, and barely sleep at night. Been alright the past couple days, only cause been busy working on some computers. I just have no idea what to do. I know I want to work things out, just feel lost...
BTW I knew I loved her since about mid October. I never felt this way about anyone, not even my ex, which I thought I loved.
Sorry for it being so long but wanted you to get a main understanding of it, even tho its not organized at all(english was my worst subject...lol).
Thanks for any advice/thoughts/ideas or anything offered.
If have any questions about it feel free to ask.
well me and my SO met on Myspace(of all places...lol), she actually initiated the first message. Shes 25 and I am 26. At the time I rarely went on there, only time that I did was when I got an email about something. She was interested in my culture(native american). At the time I wasn't looking to get into a relationship neither was she. But we exchanged messages over a month or two, even tho it was about 1-2 messages a month. Which increased very rapidly afterward. Finally we exchanged IMs and started talking weekly if not almost every day, but we weren't looking for a relationship still(or atleast I wasn't, not sure about her), I know I liked talking with her. anyways this went on for about a few months, and we started talking more about our personal lives, as for me I am the kind of person that likes looking into the future and trying to plan that out. We would contact through Yahoo, MSN, Text/sms, and a good night call. That was all great
I started falling for her. We then decided that we will try to be together and wanted to meet each other IRL. We made plans for meeting in January of this year, although that went out the door cause of cost and low money on my side(I am going to her the first time). So we planned another visit for the end of my first semester in school. but then we had issues of communication just after that(she has a daughter that is just in kindergarden), she then said that we should wait until summer. I agreed with that, just meant could save more and stay longer since I would have a couple weeks off from school.
Since about December I had a phone so that could talk with her as much as possible, even when not near a computer myself. but ever since her daughter has been in school, she hasn't messaged me as much as we used to. I do know that she was busy with getting her daughter in school, but that didn't mean the morning/evening texts or calls had to stop or slow down. Also on top of that she had to start working part time during the day. I told her I understood how that would be, just didn't understand why the messages slowed down dramatically all of a sudden(I felt forgotten...).
Lately we have only been talking through offline messages. I understand that she is busy with her daughter and work, its just that I don't understand why the talks have almost halted to one or two texts a day(if that). has been happening over the past month to 2 months.
She actually got mad at me cause I was trying to talk to her about me wanting to talk more often. saying that I don't want to understand her or that I am just putting the blame on her, which I wasn't meaning it to be that way at all. Just wanted to work it out some how.
I know since the lack of communication has hit me hard that I am always thinking of it, and barely sleep at night. Been alright the past couple days, only cause been busy working on some computers. I just have no idea what to do. I know I want to work things out, just feel lost...
BTW I knew I loved her since about mid October. I never felt this way about anyone, not even my ex, which I thought I loved.
Sorry for it being so long but wanted you to get a main understanding of it, even tho its not organized at all(english was my worst subject...lol).
Thanks for any advice/thoughts/ideas or anything offered.
If have any questions about it feel free to ask.
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