First birthday that I'm not with him
Today was my boyfriends birthday, It's been about 7 weeks since he moved.
Ever since I've known him we always celebrated birthdays even when we were off (as in broken up) at points we either did something before or after.
We talked on webcam for a bit because I had to ask him something that he needed to see me for it, sign language related. We ended up staying on it. He got off because he was feeling down from not having caffeine all day.
I ended up crying a little bit while on webcam he just said " hey don't be sad, I love you " All in a very cute tone.
I wont go into the conversation tho.
But its just like when he's on the screen it's almost like he's there and like I can touch him, but then I realize that I can't and that he's actually 273 miles away from me and it just brought me down....
My birthday is the 28th, He already sent what he got me. But it wont be the same without him here ya know?
I don't know how I'm going to handle it when it hits my birthday and he isn't here.
And before anyone suggests it no there is no way he can make it here. We are saving for a Christmas visit and we only have $13 on his end and idk how much on my end I have yet to get my check. But we are saving everything we can so we can see each other for the holidays.
-sigh- I'm not so much upset as I am sad and missing him. Like I'm calm but I miss him like crazy and wish I could have been able to hug and touch him on his birthday.
Ever since I've known him we always celebrated birthdays even when we were off (as in broken up) at points we either did something before or after.
We talked on webcam for a bit because I had to ask him something that he needed to see me for it, sign language related. We ended up staying on it. He got off because he was feeling down from not having caffeine all day.
I ended up crying a little bit while on webcam he just said " hey don't be sad, I love you " All in a very cute tone.
I wont go into the conversation tho.
But its just like when he's on the screen it's almost like he's there and like I can touch him, but then I realize that I can't and that he's actually 273 miles away from me and it just brought me down....
My birthday is the 28th, He already sent what he got me. But it wont be the same without him here ya know?
I don't know how I'm going to handle it when it hits my birthday and he isn't here.
And before anyone suggests it no there is no way he can make it here. We are saving for a Christmas visit and we only have $13 on his end and idk how much on my end I have yet to get my check. But we are saving everything we can so we can see each other for the holidays.
-sigh- I'm not so much upset as I am sad and missing him. Like I'm calm but I miss him like crazy and wish I could have been able to hug and touch him on his birthday.
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