I know I said that I wouldn't be back, but no matter how much I try, there's always something that draws me back to these forums. 
Now for an update. As most of you may know, my SO and I recently had to call our relationship quits due to a number of complex reasons, mainly being he and I can no longer bear to be in an LDR any longer. We've tried to make things work but unfortunately, they've been unable to. Now, we're still in contact with each other. And actually....considering Saturday was a complete and utter nightmare for us both, things are already starting to calm down. We still talk everyday, not so much but we do still talk. I cried myself stupid on Saturday after what happened, but following that and a long 12 hour sleep, I felt refreshed and strong enough to overcome my grief and emotions. Although things are a little difficult at times when we talk, so far things are ok between us. I'm still planning on going over there to visit him in the next couple of years as originally planned and we're still good friends despite what has happened. Which is great
And I'm glad things haven't changed all that much. We still have feelings for one another (our love hasn't died, merely been pushed to one side for now) and perhaps sometime in the future, however much of a long shot most would say it is, we hope that we might actually be able to rekindle things once I move to America. The way I'm hoping things should go is that by the time I've qualified as a nurse and I have adequate finances and experience, I'll be making the move to go over there. My motivation to move abroad is actually something I've had for many years now: I've always wanted to work and live abroad and that was from even before I knew Chris. It's been a goal I've been wanting to achieve for years.
What I wanted to tell you as well as letting you guys know briefly how I've been doing is, although I feel welcome on LFAD, I feel quite awkward. Not being in an LDR any longer....reading all of your posts and stories....makes me feel just downright awkward. I don't really know how else to describe the feeling. It may prevent me from posting much in future. I can't quite understand the feeling either. I was hoping you guys could help me understand it....
Now for an update. As most of you may know, my SO and I recently had to call our relationship quits due to a number of complex reasons, mainly being he and I can no longer bear to be in an LDR any longer. We've tried to make things work but unfortunately, they've been unable to. Now, we're still in contact with each other. And actually....considering Saturday was a complete and utter nightmare for us both, things are already starting to calm down. We still talk everyday, not so much but we do still talk. I cried myself stupid on Saturday after what happened, but following that and a long 12 hour sleep, I felt refreshed and strong enough to overcome my grief and emotions. Although things are a little difficult at times when we talk, so far things are ok between us. I'm still planning on going over there to visit him in the next couple of years as originally planned and we're still good friends despite what has happened. Which is great
And I'm glad things haven't changed all that much. We still have feelings for one another (our love hasn't died, merely been pushed to one side for now) and perhaps sometime in the future, however much of a long shot most would say it is, we hope that we might actually be able to rekindle things once I move to America. The way I'm hoping things should go is that by the time I've qualified as a nurse and I have adequate finances and experience, I'll be making the move to go over there. My motivation to move abroad is actually something I've had for many years now: I've always wanted to work and live abroad and that was from even before I knew Chris. It's been a goal I've been wanting to achieve for years.What I wanted to tell you as well as letting you guys know briefly how I've been doing is, although I feel welcome on LFAD, I feel quite awkward. Not being in an LDR any longer....reading all of your posts and stories....makes me feel just downright awkward. I don't really know how else to describe the feeling. It may prevent me from posting much in future. I can't quite understand the feeling either. I was hoping you guys could help me understand it....
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