sorry this is a long post, but i also want to go back to last night's post... starting from there abouts.
some background information first: the SO came back today, supposedly at 10pm (ill tell you why supposedly later). also he has ordered some rings for us, that are love rings to show we are forever, and were delivered today. hehe.
so last night's post basically said how i was blaming him for me not having this solo, as he always had it... i cried and cried about it till about 3am, because it was the only solo i felt passionatly about doing - its my favourite piece, the church has awesome acoustics, it would have been really nice.
i woke up today at about 1.30pm... and of course he had texted with a hello etc. i think he knew i would have gone to sleep very late as he kept it at a hello and waited for a response (hehe he is considerate like that). so i texted him, still rather depressed, with a hello.. no kiss mark at the end. not because i was still blaming him, but just because i was still upset.
so i went downstairs and basically went under another duvet and watched tv... (when i get into one of these phases i lie around and do nothing... heh...) mum sometimes coming in, but mainly leaving me to it (she knew i was really dissapointed).
at about 7pm (when SO was on the train) i finally perked up a little bit, but mostly because i realised why i was so upset. it was mostly because it was a chance id never get again, because of being older. and being older, well you cant stop you cant change. and well that depressed me somewhat. i always have wanted to be older, but when it stops me from doing stuff i love, like singing that piece (its the only piece im passionate about at church) its upsetting. another point, which i didnt tell him, was because of not being able to speak out and ask for the solo... its only recently where mum has told me to just go for it and ask for stuff... just dont have the courage. so spose last night i just wasnt at the point of blaming myself. dont know.
anyhow... so i texted this to him, and it was almost like he ignored it (im sure he did read it, he just didnt reply). in fact, he didnt say anything for a long time. till about 8.30. huh.
well by about 8.15 mum had come in again and said "is it ok if dad and i go out for a curry? will you be alright?" to which i said yes etc...
at 8.30.... the SO texted "your dad is out, isnt he?"
EEEEEEEEEP the cheeky little man lied to me and told me he would be back at 10pm... :3
so of course i rushed around getting changed (because of the mood i hadnt gotten out of nightie) and brushing hair etc... and then opened the door to see him.
well he was in his car, telling me to come near him... so i moved closer, and kicked something. looked down, and there was the box with a ring in it :O
see i told him in a joking way, when he told me he had ordered the rings, that he should "give it to me in a romantic way".... well hehe he did that alright!
so we hugged for ages. it was so nice because he didnt bring up the whole solo stuff, yet he totally understood anyway. he let me hug him and kiss him whenever (and i the same hehe) and he was just overall really really kind. he didnt do any annoying today like usual lol.
so all in all happy happy <3 a nice suprise <3
sorry that the post is so long... but i had alot to talk about
some background information first: the SO came back today, supposedly at 10pm (ill tell you why supposedly later). also he has ordered some rings for us, that are love rings to show we are forever, and were delivered today. hehe.
so last night's post basically said how i was blaming him for me not having this solo, as he always had it... i cried and cried about it till about 3am, because it was the only solo i felt passionatly about doing - its my favourite piece, the church has awesome acoustics, it would have been really nice.
i woke up today at about 1.30pm... and of course he had texted with a hello etc. i think he knew i would have gone to sleep very late as he kept it at a hello and waited for a response (hehe he is considerate like that). so i texted him, still rather depressed, with a hello.. no kiss mark at the end. not because i was still blaming him, but just because i was still upset.
so i went downstairs and basically went under another duvet and watched tv... (when i get into one of these phases i lie around and do nothing... heh...) mum sometimes coming in, but mainly leaving me to it (she knew i was really dissapointed).
at about 7pm (when SO was on the train) i finally perked up a little bit, but mostly because i realised why i was so upset. it was mostly because it was a chance id never get again, because of being older. and being older, well you cant stop you cant change. and well that depressed me somewhat. i always have wanted to be older, but when it stops me from doing stuff i love, like singing that piece (its the only piece im passionate about at church) its upsetting. another point, which i didnt tell him, was because of not being able to speak out and ask for the solo... its only recently where mum has told me to just go for it and ask for stuff... just dont have the courage. so spose last night i just wasnt at the point of blaming myself. dont know.
anyhow... so i texted this to him, and it was almost like he ignored it (im sure he did read it, he just didnt reply). in fact, he didnt say anything for a long time. till about 8.30. huh.
well by about 8.15 mum had come in again and said "is it ok if dad and i go out for a curry? will you be alright?" to which i said yes etc...
at 8.30.... the SO texted "your dad is out, isnt he?"
EEEEEEEEEP the cheeky little man lied to me and told me he would be back at 10pm... :3
so of course i rushed around getting changed (because of the mood i hadnt gotten out of nightie) and brushing hair etc... and then opened the door to see him.
well he was in his car, telling me to come near him... so i moved closer, and kicked something. looked down, and there was the box with a ring in it :O
see i told him in a joking way, when he told me he had ordered the rings, that he should "give it to me in a romantic way".... well hehe he did that alright!
so we hugged for ages. it was so nice because he didnt bring up the whole solo stuff, yet he totally understood anyway. he let me hug him and kiss him whenever (and i the same hehe) and he was just overall really really kind. he didnt do any annoying today like usual lol.
so all in all happy happy <3 a nice suprise <3
sorry that the post is so long... but i had alot to talk about
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