Both leaving for different colleges, east coast west coast after short time together

[yoyohobojo]

I feel much better now, thanks for the response Courtney. I was feeling down and these doubts grew due to all the negative energy. I am fine =]

[Courtney:)]

First of all, I just want to say that I read this entire thing, although I was a little hesitant at first xD

You are not 100% certain that you are truly in love with her - that's okay! You don't have to be "in love" to try a long distance relationship. Throughout this entire post, you go back and forth. "I really loved her. I think I still do." "I don't think I love her romantically." It's okay to be uncertain so early in a relationship...but not the best idea when you are long distance. There are so many obstacles that you have to get through being so far from each other, and if you both aren't willing to try it with each other, it isn't worth it.

You ask what happens when you reunite with your SO? I ran and jumped into his arms, holding back tears. If you can't imagine this, it might be more of a long distance friendship than a relationship. Especially when you said "I really miss her company, but I'm not sure love has anything to do with it." Exactly. You can miss someone without being in love, or even being in any sort of romantic relationship. Although I have never experienced it first hand, I know tons of people who have had amazing proms and amazing weeks with someone of the opposite sex, but just as friends. And unfortunately, that might be your case. You seem to have come to realize it, but haven't fully accepted it yet.

My advice? Talk to her about it. If you aren't comfortable bringing it up, I'd say that's when you should try to stay friends. I feel like you're not in the - what I call - dead dog relationship, (meaning, "breaking up and saying 'we can still be friends' is like your dog dying and the vet saying 'you can keep it'"). I'm sure you two will still stay friends. But, again, like you mentioned, "hard to have a fresh start if I go into college in a relationship."

I say try starting the school year only as friends. And just wait it out. If you two miss each other - as a relationship - extremely, then I say try the relationship again. You can see on here how many of us are surviving our relationships being thousands and thousands of miles away. If you two are truly devoted, distance doesn't matter.

I hope I've helped! Feel free to message me anytime if you need anything else