I have this huge complex where I am pretty much permanently fixed on the idea that my SO is way out of my league and could find someone better anytime he wanted. One, because he's super smart, handsome and very charismatic. Two, because he's going to a college where everyone is in the same stuff, so everyone pretty much has the exact same interests as he does.
Don't get me wrong, I love the stuff he loves because he loves it. I could listen to him talk for hours about Milton or Descartes (He's big into philosophy and classic literature). I am into a lot of games he likes (World of Darkness, Magic the Gathering, Mass Effect, etc) not just because he likes it but because he has super good taste and he was right about them being fun.
Ok, I'm starting to rant a bit here, but my point is, despite all the stuff we have in common, I still feel like I'm not enough for him. I have since I met him. I've always looked up and admired him and I'm just so afraid he'll slip out of my grasp before I even get the chance to have a closer distance relationship with him.
(I don't normally feel this insecure, but I've had a hard week and certain things just toppled the dominoes, ya know? I don't know if anyone has advice, but this was more of a vent than anything)
Don't get me wrong, I love the stuff he loves because he loves it. I could listen to him talk for hours about Milton or Descartes (He's big into philosophy and classic literature). I am into a lot of games he likes (World of Darkness, Magic the Gathering, Mass Effect, etc) not just because he likes it but because he has super good taste and he was right about them being fun.
Ok, I'm starting to rant a bit here, but my point is, despite all the stuff we have in common, I still feel like I'm not enough for him. I have since I met him. I've always looked up and admired him and I'm just so afraid he'll slip out of my grasp before I even get the chance to have a closer distance relationship with him.
(I don't normally feel this insecure, but I've had a hard week and certain things just toppled the dominoes, ya know? I don't know if anyone has advice, but this was more of a vent than anything)
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