So I guess telling my tale of suffering is the best way to do this.
I met this girl online when i was 17, I'm 25 now, and we've been talking pretty much everyday since. Phone, facebook, myspace, skype blahblah, all of it. We did have about a year or so where we didn't speak, because i'm an idiot, but when we started speaking again, it felt like we hadn't even stopped. We're not together or in a 'relationship' but we want to be together more than anything. We both agree that not being able to do the things that people do with each other in everyday life, gets pretty unbearable and painful. When we talk too each other, we always have that feeling that we want to squeeze each other. Recently, we've opened up a hell of alot, saying how much we love each other, and how much we crave that physical contact. We miss each other like we've actually met before, and at times i lose my mind in my thoughts about it. I could sit here all day and do nothing but think about her. Soppysoppymushmush i know, but i can't help it.
This, situation, this very long situation, drags us down at times.
We fucking love our differences, and we just connect, yknow. We know this and we feel it. We've been in a good enough amount of relationships with other people and we still thought about each other. The problem being that gigantic, stupid fucking ocean in the middle of us. Why can't I teleport?
I ache to meet her, to hold her hand, to SEE her laugh right infront of my face. I keep reading it through and it's a terrible story, it's jumping all over the fucking place and has no pacing lmao, but that couldn't be anymore accurate to how I feel.
I feel, I suffer more however, simply because she has alot more distractions than I do, and i'm pretty neurotic. So..we have no problems at all, everything is pretty peachy other than THAT OCEAN. Terrible blue nightmare. Lately we've been talking alot about how she's going to come over to see me. We're just trying to be real about the situation financially haha, and we just have random outbursts of 'JESUS FUCKIN CHRIST I MISS YOU WHY ARENT YOU HERE AAAAGHHH!'
It's strange, I never thought i'd feel like this about someone i've never met before, well, I stand corrected. It is very real, I love this girl, I never stop thinking about her, and day dreaming about her, and wishing when she was on her way from work, shes going to park up outside my house and walk through the door. I don't care what people say, people who tell me it's not real, what do they know, right? Nothing. Idiots, lmao.
It's cool that this place exists, and that i could get this out other than talking to her about it all the time because i feel like I bring it up too much.
I met this girl online when i was 17, I'm 25 now, and we've been talking pretty much everyday since. Phone, facebook, myspace, skype blahblah, all of it. We did have about a year or so where we didn't speak, because i'm an idiot, but when we started speaking again, it felt like we hadn't even stopped. We're not together or in a 'relationship' but we want to be together more than anything. We both agree that not being able to do the things that people do with each other in everyday life, gets pretty unbearable and painful. When we talk too each other, we always have that feeling that we want to squeeze each other. Recently, we've opened up a hell of alot, saying how much we love each other, and how much we crave that physical contact. We miss each other like we've actually met before, and at times i lose my mind in my thoughts about it. I could sit here all day and do nothing but think about her. Soppysoppymushmush i know, but i can't help it.
This, situation, this very long situation, drags us down at times.
We fucking love our differences, and we just connect, yknow. We know this and we feel it. We've been in a good enough amount of relationships with other people and we still thought about each other. The problem being that gigantic, stupid fucking ocean in the middle of us. Why can't I teleport?
I ache to meet her, to hold her hand, to SEE her laugh right infront of my face. I keep reading it through and it's a terrible story, it's jumping all over the fucking place and has no pacing lmao, but that couldn't be anymore accurate to how I feel.
I feel, I suffer more however, simply because she has alot more distractions than I do, and i'm pretty neurotic. So..we have no problems at all, everything is pretty peachy other than THAT OCEAN. Terrible blue nightmare. Lately we've been talking alot about how she's going to come over to see me. We're just trying to be real about the situation financially haha, and we just have random outbursts of 'JESUS FUCKIN CHRIST I MISS YOU WHY ARENT YOU HERE AAAAGHHH!'
It's strange, I never thought i'd feel like this about someone i've never met before, well, I stand corrected. It is very real, I love this girl, I never stop thinking about her, and day dreaming about her, and wishing when she was on her way from work, shes going to park up outside my house and walk through the door. I don't care what people say, people who tell me it's not real, what do they know, right? Nothing. Idiots, lmao.
It's cool that this place exists, and that i could get this out other than talking to her about it all the time because i feel like I bring it up too much.
Known each other for years, never met, but are completely head over heels for each other. We always complain about that damn Atlantic ocean too, and how it would be great if I could just close my eyes and be in his arms... It sucks!
start saving money and plan a vacation next year 
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