Hi everyone
So, i wanted to ask you guys how you keep hope, especially when you know that closing the distance is not gonna happen in the next 2-3 yrs.
I am a student in France, my boyfriend is a soon to be doctor in America.
Although I tried to look for scolarships to study closer to him, is too late, too expensive and too complicated for me to go and become a student there for next year. And then from 2016 to 2018, I'll be in a school in Paris (that's the plan). As for him, his medical degree is not accepted in Europe, so he cannot come and work here.
I went to see him for 3 months January to April. It was great, and now that I'm back, the missing and all is hitting me right in the face.
I thought I was gonna be strong like the first time (we were separated July to December last year), but it's just been 3 weeks and I feel like I'm becoming more and more hopeless and annoying.
Everytime we skype (every other day) I find my self sad and whining cause I don't know when we're gonna see each other again, when we'll be closing the distance, etc.
I always put pressure on him, asking him to give me answers that he doesn't have. He's such a good and loving person, always trying to make me smile and forget about the long distance pain. But most of the time, I look at him angrily cause I feel like he's not taking my pain seriouslty, he's making fun of me, or he doesn't understant cause he doesn't care. I put some much pressure on him, even though I know it's not a good solution.
I'm currently writing my phesis for my master's degree, and he's studying for exams. He also has two part-time jobs that he's gonna have to resume when the exam is done next month. Both of us are very busy, we reduced time of skyping and are not sending each other messages as often as before. I started feeling anxious, thinking what if we reduce our communication time even more ? What if we just forget about each other ? what if I wake up one day and realise we haven't send each other messages for a week, and it felt okay ? I know it's not that dramatic, some people have it way worse than we do, but it makes me feel stressed out and anxious.
I also started to think about our future together, closing the distance. Am I gonna find a job where he is ? What if I can't ? What if I don't get the visa, and we have to keep doing this forever ?
All these questions unanswered keep me away from working, getting things done and most importantly, keep me away from being happy. I generally am an optimistic person, always looking at the bright side of things, but it's getting harder and harder.
So yeah, I was wondering how you guys kept and are keeping hope, and how you cope with all the stress and the pain of not being able to be near the person you love.
Thank you very much for the answers.
Berenice
So, i wanted to ask you guys how you keep hope, especially when you know that closing the distance is not gonna happen in the next 2-3 yrs.
I am a student in France, my boyfriend is a soon to be doctor in America.
Although I tried to look for scolarships to study closer to him, is too late, too expensive and too complicated for me to go and become a student there for next year. And then from 2016 to 2018, I'll be in a school in Paris (that's the plan). As for him, his medical degree is not accepted in Europe, so he cannot come and work here.
I went to see him for 3 months January to April. It was great, and now that I'm back, the missing and all is hitting me right in the face.
I thought I was gonna be strong like the first time (we were separated July to December last year), but it's just been 3 weeks and I feel like I'm becoming more and more hopeless and annoying.
Everytime we skype (every other day) I find my self sad and whining cause I don't know when we're gonna see each other again, when we'll be closing the distance, etc.
I always put pressure on him, asking him to give me answers that he doesn't have. He's such a good and loving person, always trying to make me smile and forget about the long distance pain. But most of the time, I look at him angrily cause I feel like he's not taking my pain seriouslty, he's making fun of me, or he doesn't understant cause he doesn't care. I put some much pressure on him, even though I know it's not a good solution.
I'm currently writing my phesis for my master's degree, and he's studying for exams. He also has two part-time jobs that he's gonna have to resume when the exam is done next month. Both of us are very busy, we reduced time of skyping and are not sending each other messages as often as before. I started feeling anxious, thinking what if we reduce our communication time even more ? What if we just forget about each other ? what if I wake up one day and realise we haven't send each other messages for a week, and it felt okay ? I know it's not that dramatic, some people have it way worse than we do, but it makes me feel stressed out and anxious.
I also started to think about our future together, closing the distance. Am I gonna find a job where he is ? What if I can't ? What if I don't get the visa, and we have to keep doing this forever ?
All these questions unanswered keep me away from working, getting things done and most importantly, keep me away from being happy. I generally am an optimistic person, always looking at the bright side of things, but it's getting harder and harder.
So yeah, I was wondering how you guys kept and are keeping hope, and how you cope with all the stress and the pain of not being able to be near the person you love.
Thank you very much for the answers.
Berenice
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